R u ready to die?

<<双手的温柔>>
先别说 先别说
离开我的理由
反正都将是相同的结果
拥抱着 拥抱着
没开口泪先流
因为我学习着放手
偶而抬头看天空
心还会有一阵阵难过
当我习惯寂寞
才是自由的时候
眼泪安安静静的流过
相爱的时候你说过的话还清晰在耳朵
时光安安静静的走过
偶而回过头
曾经拥抱过的双手
还留着温柔
多年后 多年后
也许不再伤痛
当我们已经失去了连络
可能你 可能我
在不同的角落
依旧吹着同一阵风

a song by jiang mei qi. one of my fav. esp the last two phrases above.
we r at diff corners of the world, but the same gust of wind just came by.
powerful.

i read this article on "Today", toking abt death.
r we ready to die? r u afraid? wat will u do if i tell u dat u r dying soon?
would u wan to die w integrity?
will u choose to die in pain (but longer life) or will u wan to make the choice to die when u can (ask the doc nt to treat u anymore)?
difficult choice.
i wun dare to sign the AMD (advanced medical directive) either. hw the hell will i noe whether i still wan to fight or nt? if my partner is still alive (provided i hav one) then, of cos i will wan to fight on for my life. but if my partner is gone (or i'm juz alone in the world), of cos i wan to leave asap.
so, how to sign the AMD?
simply no guts.
ask me when i'm dying. maybe i will tell u.
that is provided i die of illness. if it is due to accident, then not much choice.
ok, y shd i tok abt death early in the morning?
1stly, i'm nt THAT young anymore. reaching the big 3 soon.
2ndly, i had a very very traumatic nitemare last nite. i still feel sad n having a headache now. dun ask me wat dream. i'm nt telling u.
ok, dats it.
i'm nt ready to die.
dun let me die now.
treasure life while u can. u will nv noe when it will b taken away from u.
love all around u. ur parents, frens, colleagues.....those whom r impt to u.
for those whom r reading this, i love u all.
serious.
except non-humans of cos. he simply pissed me off everytime i c him.