Random comments

the mth is ending soon.
xian.
time is going too fast. b4 u noe it, its gone.
damn.
i think i wun score well for my cdt.serious.
not after he told us abt our assignment.
terrible, he say. n he proceeded to explain y.
my god. i dun hav a good feeling man.
sigh. hack la
as long i get 2nd upper, i'm happy.
i am so burnout already. juz wan this to end soon.
n i've finally found out y i'm having tight chest recently.
stress? maybe. but the most part of it muz b due to the "feng shui" in my office.
the air con is faulty (again), n the air flow in the enclosed area is really bad.
so, dats it.
hey, pluto still haven't reply me.
reply me ah.

重来

昨天看了<<童梦奇缘>>，里头的老人说了一句话。
“很遗憾的，生命是不能重来的。可是，很庆幸的，它也不需要重来。”
你希望生命重来吗？
如果可以改变，你又想做什么变动呢？
我能给你的，永远都不会是快乐。
这是永远都变不了的事实。
品冠的歌。

<<重来>>
曾经的你是我全部
在朋友面前常爱提起的名字
最喜欢你笑的样子
彷佛一个单纯快乐的孩子
如今一切历历在目
你已成为我伤心的往事
那段有你有梦的日子
我真的很想可以再开始

虽然过去都已飘逝
我仍期待重来一次
好好将所有感觉从头收拾
再回到我和你的昨日

我真的很想让我和你
回到过去重新再来再爱一次
我会在乎我们的故事
改写我们的历史
为你轻轻擦去眼角的泪珠
真的很想让我和你
回到过去重新再来再爱一次
我会珍惜我们的最初
不想看你为我哭
让你陪孤独说不尽心事

Daily crap

i broke my record this morning.
i swam 12 laps in 20 mins.
wahahaha.....
ok, it might nt mean anything to u la, but for a lao lang kay like me, it is definitely an achievement.
yeah baby.
btw,if u r pluto,the one whom left msg in my "comments" section, please tell me who u r. i'm sure if u hav my blog addy, u will hav ways to identify urself to me.
i wan to noe who u r.:)
there is a new club at st james called "the dragonfly", n guess wat music they hav.
M pop!!!!
i wan to go!!!! who wans to go w me???
suddenly, i missed those days when i can sit by the river/seaside n sing together w frens.
i still rem when i visited HK 4 yrs ago,i sat by the habour w HZ, adel, SC, P and auntie FY. we juz sat there n sang together, for 1 hr.
we can nv nv do dat in spore.
sigh. i wan that feel. i had nt felt like dat for ages.
lets go HK again n do it. it will b so so fun.
i will b going for my tanning session later. so, do expect to c a lobster tmr.

I am Rain

In case u guys nv c it, here it is.
Laugh baby.

My retirement plans

i have this dream already.
i wan to retire in new zealand, w a house on a hilltop. i will hav a small farm, w sheeps n cows. then, i will milk them daily for the tiny winy income so dat i can sustain myself n my partner. i will sit outside the house on a rocking chair w my partner, toking abt wat happen to our dog the day b4.....
serene n relac life.
i wan it.
then my bro n i were toking abt it last nite.

me: i wan to retire in NZ, then hav a farm.
bro: huh? y farm?
me: cool mah. farmer leh. got controlled price for everything.
bro: hmm....true. i wan to own a resort when i'm old.
me: huh? buy in east coast ah?
bro: tsk, no la. machiam those in japan, beach boys. provide homestay for ppl.
me: oh....min su ah?
bro: ya....then everyday go fishing.
me: huh? but u duno how to swim wor.
bro: tsk, u noe wat is a fishing rod or nt? fishing no need to swim one lor,stupid.
me: ya hor. but japan v stressful one leh.
bro: i noe. so i will hav extra activity to relief my stress on weekends when i'm old in japan.
me: simi?
bro: i will go n take their mrt, n deh young girls' kar ceng.
me: huh????? eeeee, u pervert.
bro: no mah, if i dun do it, other ppl oso do it lor. it is so common in japan.
me: hmm....its true.
bro: ya la, then i will still hav black hair when i'm 80 yrs old, cos i hav this to keep me young!
me: yaya, then ur wife will ask u every weekend "where u going ah"
bro: take mrt deh kar ceng lor
me n bro: hahahahaha
after 5 mins.
me: eh, i go n visit u in japan when i'm old.
bro: huh? for fu**?
me: take mrt w u.

hahahahaha.
our pervert dreams.

*P.S: the above conversation was not meant to insult anyone in particular. it is juz a part of stupid family conversation. any inconvenience caused is deeply regretted.

南京的孩子

已经过了很久，我还是动弹不得。压在我身上的尸体的血已流干，我却还是不敢轻举妄动。日军在我身边走来走去，我根本没机会逃。等着等着，我累得睡着了。也不知过了多久，我被饿醒了。睁开眼时，已经是晚上了。我看了看四周，发现巷子里没人，便连忙把尸体推开。可是因为很久没吃东西，在加上躺了太久，肌肉有些僵硬，我费了很多时间和力气才把那具尸体推开。
我慢慢地从尸堆爬出来，走向巷子的尾端。突然，在巷子里传来一阵枪声。我荒了。急忙地找地方躲起来。由于巷子里布满了尸体，所以最好的藏身处便是尸堆中。我快速地躺进尸里，深怕被日军发现。
枪声越来越靠近，我的内心也跟着恐慌了起来。
如果被发现了，怎么办？
听见匆忙的脚步声慢慢逼近，我更是屏住呼吸。
有个人仓惶失措地跑进巷子里，躺在我身边。日军随后也跑了进来，寻找躺在我旁边的这个人。虽然巷子里乌漆麻黑,可是因为他的呼吸声太大，那个人很快就被发现了。日本鬼子二话不说，一枪打暴了他的头。随后还用小刀狠狠地捅了他几刀，才带队离去。
我慢慢地爬起来，擦了擦身上的血，往巷尾奔去。不知道要到哪儿去，也不知道究竟要跑多远，只知道如果停下来，就会没命。所以我一直跑，一直跑。
这时的南京市已是个死城。街上只看见残屋败瓦，尸体布满了整条街，到处是血腥味。正当我不知所措地找寻方向时，我听见了小孩的哭声。
怎么回事？
我四处张望，看到了一个小女孩跪在一旁哭泣。我走上前，问：“小妹妹，你怎么会在这里？”
“爸爸不见了！”她哭着说。
“我陪你去找，好吗？别哭了吧。”我牵着她的小手，走到街上，四处看看。突然，我们听见一阵脚步声。我急忙把小妹妹抱起，然后跑进街边的一个楼梯口。“不要出声。”我轻声地告诉她。小妹妹点了点头，紧紧地抱着我。
日军缓缓地走向我们，仿佛知道我们就在那里一样。正当我觉得我们必死无疑时，楼梯口传来了一声：“喂，上来！”。我往上看，有个修女在跟我招手。我抱着小妹妹，跑了上楼。“跟我来！”修女带着我们，走进了一个密室。昏暗的密室里头躺着很多伤者，而有几名修女正在照顾他们。修女姐姐抵了两个面包给我，然后说：“给你和妹妹吃。你们在这里很安全，不用担心。”。我点了点头，把面包撕成小块，分给小妹妹吃。
“你几岁？”修女问我。
“十六。”我回她。
“妹妹呢？”
“不知道。她不是我妹妹。她在街上找爸爸，我就陪她找。”
修女叹了口气：“在这时候，又有谁的家是完整的？”
我和妹妹吃饱后，便累得睡着了。我睡得正香时，妹妹把我叫了起来。
“我们是不是不找爸爸了？”她问。
“找！我一定陪你找！”我坚定地回答。
妹妹笑了笑：“嗯！我们明天去找！”
“嗯！”
过了不久，妹妹拍了拍我肩膀，告诉我：“我今年五岁。我叫小雨。别忘了哦，哥哥。”
自从战争开始到现在，我已经不知道什么是开心、快乐了。
可是今天，我好开心。
第二天早上，修女把我们叫醒：“孩子们，我们得赶快离开。我们被日军发现了！”
“哥哥，我们去哪儿啊？”妹妹问。
“不知道。”我牵着她一起跑。她回过头问修女们：“姐姐，我们去哪儿？”。只见大家互相对望，面有难色。
在这个时候，谁又知道该何去何从呢？
我们大夥儿跑到了一个山丘上，因为离日本士兵较远，所以放慢了脚步。从山丘一眼往下，便是长江。我们走着，妹妹忽然停了下来。“怎么了？”我问她。
“哥哥，这是长江吗？”她反问我。
“嗯，这是长江。”我回答。
“爸爸告诉过我，长江的流水可以把我们的思念寄到被思念的人心里。”她看着我说。“是真的吗？”她 问。我摇摇头：“我不知道。”
“那我们试试看，好吗？”她要求。我对她微微笑，点了点头。她开心地牵着我的手，向着长江大喊：“爸爸！我好想你！”
或许人到了绝境时比较容易接受传说与谎言。我接着也大声地喊：“妈！！我也很想你！”
“爸爸，小雨会乖乖地等你回来！你一定要回来！”
****
一个星期后，我们的行踪被日军发现。大家被关了起来。妹妹两天后被日军强暴后一枪杀死。
修女们也惨遭同样的命运。
****
南京大屠杀 - 一九三七年十二月 - 一九三八年二月

Grouchy + depressed

i hav been having frequent migrane attacks recently. duno y.
the state of depression is back again.
i dun feel happy already, n mood has been on a swing towards extremes too.
dats not good at all.
i need a break from everything.
leave me alone.

anyway, in order to give myself a treat, HZ n i went for a movie at GV grand gold class.
miami vice.
i tell u, i can shoot a better film then whoever is the bloody director.
knn, waste limpeh's time la. watch until end, oso dun noe wth he wan to show. esp those long takes on the character's face.
wan to let limpeh c whether there r any pimple on their face is it????
ta ma de. end up i fell asleep on the comfi chair.
waste limpeh's 2 hrs.
i rather go n hav a drink lor.
btw, there is a new italian cafe in great world. quite cool, cos its a place for chill out, w wide varieties of champagne n caviar!!!!
i love it.
someone go w me.
wan or nt, my mdis gang? then we can hold our mthly tcs session there.
hahaha.
maybe that will help to make me happy abit.
abit oni.
hahaha

Xian

i wan to watch "the banquet". i love zhang ziyi.
i went to cut my hair yesterday (finally), so dat i will look good on jen's banquet.
suck. i still havent buy clothes for the occasion yet. hav no time at all lor.
damn it.
i think i'm too stressed out recently. i'm having tight chest, chest pain n breathlessness again. after i went to the doc so many times bcos of this, i'm sure i dun hav any heart problems.
i juz need a break.
too tired.
apparently, nobody in my cluster wanted to help me.my driver's OT hit ll time high, n my boss is already breathing down my neck abt it. however, the world we r in is so selfish, everyone is so pre-occupied w themselves, regardless of hw i beg.
fine. u wan to scold me, scold lor. i really cant do anything. i oni hav one driver, n she has to send ration everyday. hw not to hit OT. u teach me la. then everyone hear my voice on the phone machiam c ghost like dat, say they cant spare, then ask boss, he told me he oso busy. then how? i use bamboo n take 2 pails at a time la.
i sure mati this mth. my survey oso suffered bcos of the pushing of ration.
i hack care liao. wan to pok me pok lor.
i can't do anything.
or shd i say, i've done everything i could.
moron mgmt = under performing staff.
definitely true.

我新的创作

我新的创作。看一下。


你还好吗 还快乐吗
是否还是 笑得灿烂
还单纯吗 还是放不下
那一段恼人的哀伤
你还好吗 还迷惘吗
是否依然 等待曙光
还难过吗 还是在期盼
那已经逝去的过往
或许明天、将来、永远
愿望都不会实现
在这里、那里、天边
也不会有沧海桑田
请相信记忆在心中永不幻灭
在心中就能找到永远

What the........

wah lau.
i tell u, i'm going to feedback to my condo mgmt abt this.
eventually, the pool cleaner (refer to previous post) did it again.
some more this time diff person.
he cleaned the pool again w me still in it. there was another lady swimming too. apparently, i think the company asked them to clean the pool under any circumstances.

scenerio 1

me: hey, u cleaning the pool?
cleaner: huh? i duno leh.
me: how can duno one? u cleaning now ah? i'm swimming now lor.
cleaner: huh? u swimming meh? i duno leh.
me: #%$%$^....can u clean later?
cleaner: huh? i duno leh....

knn

scenerio 2

me: excuse me, r u cleaning the pool now?
cleaner: ya
me: but i'm swimming now
cleaner: ya?
me: then u still cleaning?
cleaner: ya
me: dat means u will clean the pool w me in it la
cleaner: tsk.....ya

equally knn.

both scenerio suck. wth was he thinking man.
i wan to complain.
digress.
wat the hell is happening to our neighbourhood?
our neighbour's father is scolding his fav son, saying that he steal money from the family, n regret choosing him as his fav son.
another neighbour worse. the father went overseas for work, his brother took over his assets, leaving him w nothing overseas.
another distant neighbourhood juz finished a fight w their neighbour, juz bcos the neighbour invited their children to their house.
yet another distant neighbour, half of the household were nt happy w the grandfather, so they've decided to rebel against him. the best thing is, the grandfather is having dementia (or not?), he machiam act blur to the situation. continue to enjoy life.
wth. like dat limpeh cant go to this neighbourhood this dec liao.
so luan.
sigh. will they ever grow up?
ppl dun like u, then let them choose who they wan lor.
simple mah.
say oni la.

So funny!!!!

i tell u, i had a good time laughing.
my jaw dropping liao.
http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/face-recognition-results.php?temp=7a7d015489yjgp17&server=Server11&database=1&startYear=1800&endYear=2005

ladies n gentlemen, call me rain (uuuuu...ahhhh....hmmmm....ahhhh)......hahahahahahaha
ok la, dun puke. juz for fun
so fun.
put ur own face on it. click browse then attach ur photo, then click to icon below.
hav fun!!!
http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/tryFaceRecognition.php

<<明知道>>

认识她是因为 <<明知道>> 这首歌。会注意到这首歌，因为它符合了我当时的心情。

<<明知道>>
我想算了吧
不如就这样地分手
我的心在痛
对你的爱太浓
是否你能带走过去的承诺
不再对你奢求什么
只想让你懂
转过身就不能回
头已经作决定
又何必再强留
选择了离开我还能说什么
爱使你爱使我迷惑明
知道爱你不会有结果
为何还如此执著
为你付出所有
你竟不顾一切就走
明知道爱你只是继续错
为何还如此脆弱
已经习惯有你
已经不能将你摆脱
也许当一场梦
梦醒一切都随风



可惜她并没有因为这首歌而大红大紫。反而是<<豆腐街>> 里的<<城里的月光>> 让她闯出了知名度。
我喜欢<<豆腐街>>，因为那个年代的人生活得很简单，幸福也很单纯。和喜欢的人手牵手，一起看日出，这是幸福。和家人一起同桌吃饭，这也是幸福。一切都是那么简单、自然。
可是最让我留意到的不是<<城里的月光>>。我反而喜欢片尾曲<<带我走>>。简单的编曲，单纯的歌词，加上她清澈的歌声，凸显了剧中所描绘的情景。

<<带我走>>
带我离开这里
到一个被遗忘的小镇
我只想静静的和你相爱一生
带我离开这里
到一个被遗忘的小镇
找回我和你黯淡已久的星辰
只有你的吻才能抵挡夜寒冷
只有在紧紧拥抱中才能感觉到一点永恒
就算注定是流浪的一生
让我随你这旅程
就算失去勇气和自由不悔恨
就算注定是飘泊的一生
让我随你这旅程
要你永远感动我最深处的灵魂.....


希望她加油，勇敢快乐地生活。
美静，加油。

A smile a day

i went for my tanning session yesterday, n i'm like a lobster (yes, again) nw. dun tap on my shoulders when u c me in the streets.
something to ponder on though. it was unusually crowded yesterday, so i hav to wait for my turn to use the machine (in case u still cant visualise, it is the machine featured in "final destination 3". n no, i wun end up like them, so stop frowning). after my the session, i went for a shower. n since the shower rom is empty, i took my own sweet time to clean myself up.
after my shower, as i was preparing to leave, an ang mo lady came in. apparently, she waited for me to come out la (cos there r oni one shower rm in the whole damn shop). i felt so pai seh. as i was abt to apologise, she smiled at me n asked "so how's everything?"
i was dumb. hahaha. besides that she is quite chio (what else), she was v friendly. it took me 5 secs to answer her "oh, good." n she smiled again n say "cool! c u!"
wow
it reminded me of another incident i've encountered a few yrs ago at the swisshotel (then westin). i was staying on the 58th floor dat time (i think la), so it will take a a fair bit of time in the lift to reach. so i was in the lift w an ang mo uncle. i got so bored that i started to tap my feet. the ang mo saw, n smiled. then he said "quite a long journey up isn't it?"
again, i was dumb la.
he proceeded "i'm from UK. r u local?" i smiled n said yes. then he proceeded w some complains on the weather (wats new). he kept toking until he reached his floor.
he was staying on the same level as me.
as we headed for diff directions, he cheerfully said "alrite, c u around! nice tokin to u!"
wow
i oni said a "yes". nothing else. v nice meh.
hahaha
however, i cant deny dat i feel pretty cheerful for the rest of the day. was it bcos of the friendliness (how to spell?)?
eh, y singaporeans dun do dat ah? we dun even smile to each other.
we dun even chat w the neighbour whom stayed in the corner for the past 10 yrs.
y r we so cold.
hmmmm
perhaps we r too focused on our own life, that we forgot others around us.
so, smile at someone today!!! make their day a happy one (wout them thinking that u r a moron la.smile at the rite person la). u will nv noe hw much it will mean to them.
i sound like a IMF rep.
hahahaha
4 million smiles.
mission impossible. mad.

你，属于谁？

衫菜在道明寺身后喊着：“是我！！是我......我是你的衫菜......你忘了吗？”
“我是你的衫菜！”
在这世上，谁是真正属于一个人的？
而你，又属于谁？
当你心甘情愿地想被谁占有时，是否了解到对方的感受？
他要你吗？他也属于你吗？
你，属于谁？

I am becoming older

face it.
in less than a mth, i will b 1 yr older.
xian lor. cant act cute anymore.
anyway, abt my bday celebration, my gang was asking wat i want for the dinner n oso my present.
latest update.
teo is buying the "hard gay" for me.
mui n cheryl is buying a pair of lee hom concert tix for me.( woo hoo!!!! i love u babes!!!)
HZ had already bought a belt for me.
so, wat do i need?
i hav been thinking.
ppl, if u cant afford the versace watch, the mercs, then i hav smth else in my mind.
i need an oven.
serious. nt microwave ah. i need an electrical oven. so dat i can whip up more dishes.
hee.
i saw one in cold storage. cheap cheap. oni 40 bucks.
c, i so good to u all. 5 pax share 1, 1 person pay 8 bucks oni.
hahahaha.....
i cant think of anything i really need la.
so dun waste ur money ok?
we can hav dinner together if u guys wan.
dat will b enuff. cos u guys n gals r the best present heaven has given me (eeeewwww, damn disgusting la)
ok, i admit i said dat purposely to get a better present.
hahahahaha.....
no la, really no need.
ok?

digress.
i saw a report on a "cure" for DM 2.
my god.
they will transplant pig's embryogenic cells in humans!!!!!
xiao ah!!!!
will i snore if i get the transplant????
hmmm........

颜色

世人喜欢的把人生比喻成颜色。
把人生归类成不一样的颜色似乎也是理所应当的。
红色代表热情、代表危险。
蓝色代表忧郁、代表平静。
黄色代表开朗、代表阳光。
白色代表纯真、代表和平。
黑色代表神秘、代表悲伤。
我不愿被世人归类。
所以，
我是透明的。

Misunderstandings

ok. this will b a long long post.
1stly, i wan to clarify smth. to L. nothing in my previous post was toking abt u. i hav nothing against u. so, dun get so upset abt it. I AM NOT TOKING ABT U!!!!!
n bcos of this misunderstanding, i've decided nt to write anything abt the beast-whom-stole-the -emperor's-underwear-n wore-it-like-a-traffic-light anymore.
enuff is enuff.
i will nt waste my blog entry for it anymore.
final.
2ndly, wat i wan to say is dat this is MY BLOG. i hav the freedom to write anything. nt happy, dun read (nt aiming at anyone, juz a general statement).
ok, tok abt my exciting weekend.

went clubbing w jen's gang for her hen's nite on fri. if u r saying "wah, so shiok" then u r wrong.
limpeh haven't warm up, our "hen" doh liao.
ya, then end up 4 of us shared the "waterfall" which was actually for jen.
ta ma de.
drink until may (aka the skyscaper) oso blur blur.
wah lau.
then i went to visit ann in the hospital on sat. apparently, all my frens seemed to b cursed. 2 asthma, another 2 in hospital, 1 w serious migrane. muz go guan yin miao n bai bai.
anyway, i think ann is ok, cos she scolded me "knn" when she saw me appearing beside her bed. haha. power.
then cheryl, HZ n i went bugis to look for mui. end up, mui took half day off. so we had dinner together (mui's treat!!! thanks!!!) at terra cafe. power. we enjoyed so much until we kept laughing. i told cheryl i wan micheal blubble (how to spell???) cd. mui heard it n asked me "huh, who is he? na gen cong? (translated as "which spring onion"). cheryl asked her "shei shi cong?" (who is spring onion) .
wah lau eh. i got a good time laughing lor. super sotong.
HZ n i went to watch "forbbiden city" after the dinner. v powerful performance by the cast, esp kit chan. i love her performance so so much. well done. the music n arrangement is nice too!!! by dick (lee)!!!
so touching.
go n watch it. worth all ur money.
one of the song i like alot. by kit chan. it makes me think so much over the weekend.
shd we look at things as it is? or shd we dig deeper to noe more abt the person? will we give chance?
apparently, if ci xi was evil n selfish, she wun let guang xu make those changes to china. too risky. during those days, she had to b ruthless in order to survive in the palace.
was it wrong?
will we b as ruthless if we were in her shoes? they dun hav a choice in that era.
that made me think of another impt person in chinese history. qin shi huang.
wout him, we will nt hav chinese characters (han zi). wout him, we will still b babaric. wout him, china will nt b untied.
ruthless? maybe.
but they dun hav a choice.
i'm sure they still love the ppl around them. i'm sure they still hav emotions.
i'm sure.
ok. the song by kit.

Why Dream Of Love

Is this what eyes were never meant to see

The end of hope and all it meant to me

How can I find the strength to carry on another day

Without my pride there's nothing left to say

Is this the way may life was meant to be?

Too late for me to say that I was wrong

Perhaps the weak believe that they are strong

I thought that if I tried I'd find a way to earn their trust

Yet all I've known and loved has tuend to dust

It seems there was no way I could belong

The fire that birns within your heart

The pain that tears your life apart

The rain that falls from the broken skies

The love I lost beneath the lies

And must I face the truth alone?

Is this the end of all I've known?

The years I gave, the tears I cried

Why dream of love, when love has died?

I know one day the story will be told

And in the end the secrets will be told

And will they look at me and say I should have known the end

Perhaps I did but why should I pretend?

I only dreamt of love and growing old

The fire that burns within your heart

The pain that tears your life apart

The rain that falls from the broken skies

The love I lost beneath the lies

And must I face the truth alone?

Is this the end of all I've known?

The years I gave, the tears I cried

Why dream of love, when love has died......

*****

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we all choose to believe what we want to believe, which might nt necessarily b the truth.

learn to accept the truth.

Totally insane

ok, i've deleted the last post .
if u r wondering y, i'm nt going to tell.
i slept at 5am this morning, n had juz woke up. jen's hen's nite. totally insane.
will blog more later.
will b going down to hospital to visit ann later.
having a swollen eyes nw......
machiam powerpuff girls.

无题

她含泪望着他。他底着头，说：“对不起，我不爱你。”
她的世界崩溃了。得到这样的结果，其实是她所预计会发生的事。只是它真正到来时，还是很难接受。泪水不自觉流了下来，她的心就象被狠狠地插了一刀，痛得无法呼吸。
他慢慢地转过身，说了句：“好好爱惜你自己。”然后走了。她似乎承受不了打击，瘫坐在地上。她心有不干，大声地喊：“她都不爱你！为什么你不接受我？我不懂！”
他停下了脚步，淡淡地说：“就象我也不懂为什么你会那么爱我一样。”
她沉默了。他没转过身，继续在原地说：“我爱她，这件事，似乎从来不用话说，也不需要被提醒，它就这样一直发生着。不管她在哪里，她在做什么，我永远都是在扮演着那个守护她的角色。我不敢离开，也不敢走远，可是却又不敢靠近。”他顿了顿：“可是这一次，我真的累了。”他叹了口气，继续说：“因为爱她让我变得很坚强。虽然付出很疲惫，可是我却活得很有气力。只是，过去的我只会爱人，却不懂得被爱，甚至是不敢被爱。直到我遇见了你......”
他转过身，缓缓地走向她：“你让我知道被爱虽然带着遗憾，可是却好幸福。可以大声哭，大声笑，可以被包容，可以被等待。那是我第一次感觉到生命其实可以很厚实，其实可以很温暖......”他用手擦掉她的眼泪：“可是我是真的累了。我关了自己好久好久。我现在只想自由自在地飞......让我飞，好吗？我需要你的祝福。”
她似乎明白了什么，点了点头，说：“一定要幸福哦！”
他微笑着回答：“嗯。你也是。”

R u ready to die?

<<双手的温柔>>
先别说 先别说
离开我的理由
反正都将是相同的结果
拥抱着 拥抱着
没开口泪先流
因为我学习着放手
偶而抬头看天空
心还会有一阵阵难过
当我习惯寂寞
才是自由的时候
眼泪安安静静的流过
相爱的时候你说过的话还清晰在耳朵
时光安安静静的走过
偶而回过头
曾经拥抱过的双手
还留着温柔
多年后 多年后
也许不再伤痛
当我们已经失去了连络
可能你 可能我
在不同的角落
依旧吹着同一阵风

a song by jiang mei qi. one of my fav. esp the last two phrases above.
we r at diff corners of the world, but the same gust of wind just came by.
powerful.

i read this article on "Today", toking abt death.
r we ready to die? r u afraid? wat will u do if i tell u dat u r dying soon?
would u wan to die w integrity?
will u choose to die in pain (but longer life) or will u wan to make the choice to die when u can (ask the doc nt to treat u anymore)?
difficult choice.
i wun dare to sign the AMD (advanced medical directive) either. hw the hell will i noe whether i still wan to fight or nt? if my partner is still alive (provided i hav one) then, of cos i will wan to fight on for my life. but if my partner is gone (or i'm juz alone in the world), of cos i wan to leave asap.
so, how to sign the AMD?
simply no guts.
ask me when i'm dying. maybe i will tell u.
that is provided i die of illness. if it is due to accident, then not much choice.
ok, y shd i tok abt death early in the morning?
1stly, i'm nt THAT young anymore. reaching the big 3 soon.
2ndly, i had a very very traumatic nitemare last nite. i still feel sad n having a headache now. dun ask me wat dream. i'm nt telling u.
ok, dats it.
i'm nt ready to die.
dun let me die now.
treasure life while u can. u will nv noe when it will b taken away from u.
love all around u. ur parents, frens, colleagues.....those whom r impt to u.
for those whom r reading this, i love u all.
serious.
except non-humans of cos. he simply pissed me off everytime i c him.

Fed up

ok. dats it. i am nt going to organise ANYTHING in the future. esp if it concerns money issue.
so many buay zi dong ppl around. some more if one of them is your good fren.
suck.
no more. i'm doing this oni bcos of my xiao mei.
if nt, i wun even bother.
wtf.
stop bothering me in the future. u wan to come come. dun wan then i oso dun wan to c u.
makes no diff to me.


anyway, wanted to share these w all of u.
damn funny. i laugh like mad when i heard these.
make sure u play it till the end. the NG part is the best.
click on the podcast.

http://www.mrbrownshow.com/?p=239
http://www.mrbrownshow.com/?p=252
http://www.mrbrownshow.com/?p=212
http://www.mrbrownshow.com/?p=212
http://www.mrbrownshow.com/?p=218

I've changed my mind.....

ok, i used to go gaga over BMW Z4 and lambo. however, i think it will nt b possible for my to drive a lambo this poor life. so, i'm changing my fav car into smth more practical.

ta da.....mercedes SL roadster. hahaha.practical or nt?

muahahaha.....in case u nv c properly, here's a few more.....

power hor.....

dun tell me to stop dreaming.

i wan to make it possible.

hee hee.

digress.

i tell u, i gana aim last nite. thanks to the beast/ghost in my class.

he was standing near my seat after break, asking L abt smth. then, in order nt to stand close to him,i stood at my table for a while. this was when JY past by me. he wanted to "siam" the beast, n stepped on me accidentally. then i was telling him jokingly "eh, nv say sorry ah?".....guess wat he say.

"SO BIG SIZE STILL BLOCK THE WAY!!!! MORON!!!!!"

hahaha....if u r clever enuff, u shd noe whom he was refering to (of cos nt me hor, i v skinny one......well, compared to the beast la) n to make sure the beast heard him, i purposely say out loud "aiyo, i gana scolded leh, BIG SIZE MORON....."

i think he noe la. cos the whole class was laughing.

however, to maintain my reputation n intergrity, i demanded an apology from JY. he laugh out loud n say "pai seh ah".

nvm, i feel shiok when u scold him....hahaha....but gana used as a "tool" nt v "song" lor.

dun do it again ah.....

Die die oso muz share

ok. i'm not crazy to hav 3 post a day.
but this is so good.
i hav to share.
the ending theme song of "bleach" (jap animation)

I want hard gay

wah biang. i nearly had a heart attack when isaw this.
someone buy it for me.
quick

i wan HARD GAY!!!!

UUUUHHHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

buy for me.

quick.

at wheelock plc.

quick.

Food again

i tell u, i'm losing patience w myself already.
i had a "foody" dream again last nite. wth.
i dreamt dat i was having noodles. 3 types together, mind u. instant noodles, mee pok, mee kia all cooked together in my fav wanton mee style (the one i've eaten for more than 20yrs).
c, i'm so hungry in my dreams.
wth.
anyway, regarding my last post, i've recieved mixed reviews. some like it, some dun. the one whom dun like it commented that she dun understand wat i'm writing.
tsk
kns la.
use ur imagination. haha
then she told me "u ask me to comment, then u ask me to go imagine." hahaha.....well, maybe it really take the comments seriously.
i wan to b a famous writer mah. (i noe, dun puke) i've been writing stories, poems (chinese one hor) n lyrics over the years. i told HZ b4 that i wanted to print all out n make a book out of it. my own book. but we nv do it la.
sob.
nvm, i'll bind it myself, then i'll sit in the tunnel at orchard mrt stn, nxt to the uncle whom play the keyboard. then i will beg everyone whom pass by to take a look at my "book".
bah. rubbish. haha.
i'm having illusions.



他抵了件厚厚的棉袄给她，说：“天气冷，把它穿上吧。” 她默默地底下头，“嗯”了一声，把棉袄接了过去。外头正下着雪，刺骨的北风在这时吹了进来。他看见她颤抖了一下，便握紧她的手，道：“要好好照顾自己，如果他对你不好......”他顿了一会儿，然后轻声的在她耳边说：“我会一直在这里......不要把我给忘了......”说到这儿，他的眼泪不禁地流下。他把她紧紧地拥进怀里，因不想让她看见他的泪水。可是他却没发现，她也在偷偷地流着泪。
到了离别的时候，他从柜子里拿出了一瓶桂花酿，倒出一小杯，抵给她。
“这是我们最爱的桂花酿，喝一点暖暖身子，那你上路时就不会那么冷了。”她点了点头，一口饮尽。然后，看了他一眼，说：“你也不能把我忘了。”
“绝不会忘了你......”
她转过身，走到了门口，停下脚步，仿佛想说什么，却没说。他背着她，因为不想看着她离去。沉默了许久，他慢慢地转过身，只看见门打开了。
她走了......

给你一碗桂花酿 碗底全是碎花瓣 甜的那么淡
心是多么伤 满脸是泪的我 你看也不看
为了和你好聚好散 不敢说出多悲伤
你的心已淡 我的情未断 怎能相信我们 还来日方长
请你喝完桂花酿
从此不再为你想 怕你又是我的方向
永远都为你心乱 心乱
请你喝完桂花酿
如果你真的可以忘 不再说该谁欠谁还
相不相爱都无关 无关


ps: HZ nv laugh it off. i was wrong. wrong info. sorry ah.......

《菊花台》

蝉声扰乱了夜的宁静，他独自走在无人的河堤。走着走着，看见自己在水中的倒影，随着夜的微风慢慢地泛起了涟漪。他轻叹：“夜色如此美丽，但和我的心情却是对比。”
他随着风声缓缓地舞动手上的剑。或许是因为他有些醉意，头一昏，倒坐在地。独自坐在菊花台，这一幕显得有些孤寂。他又叹了叹气，泪水慢慢决堤。在这微凉的夜晚，泪水是如此温暖，但心，却如此地悲凉。心里的画面都是她的身影，不曾改变，也不曾离去。唯一不同的是，现在的我已不是我，你已不是你......


<<菊花台>>
你的泪光柔弱中带伤
惨白的月儿弯弯固住过往
夜太漫长凝结成了霜
是谁在阁楼上冰冷地绝望
雨轻轻叹朱红色的窗
我依身在纸上被风吹乱
梦在远方化成一缕香
随风飘散你的模样
菊花灿烂地烧
你的笑容已泛黄
花落人断肠我心事静静躺
被风乱也微摇
你的影子剪不断
独留我孤单在湖面神伤
花已伤完飘落了灿烂
凋谢的市道上冥冥不堪
手摸独樵愁心拆两半
他已上不了爱一辈子摇晃
谁的江山马蹄声慌乱
我一身的戎装呼啸沧桑
天微微亮你轻声的叹
一夜惆怅如此委婉
菊花灿烂地烧你的笑容已泛黄
花落人断肠我心事静静躺
被风乱也微摇
你的影子剪不断
独留我孤单在湖面神伤
菊花灿烂地烧你的笑容已泛黄
花落人断肠我心事静静躺
被风乱也微摇
你的影子剪不断
独留我孤单在湖面神伤

this is a song by jay. but i wrote the top part myself.
dats wat i felt abt the song.
nice or nt?
comment pls.

Enjoyable weekend, but......

very fun weekend. i had a good time laughing. until i hav 6 pacs liao.
well, almost.
we celebrated elmo n jen's bday on sat evening in the korean rest in far east. food was nice, but quite ex though. there was a confusion when the food was served (as in diff sets hav diff dishes). end up, we shared all.by the time the rice (which is the MAIN course) was served, i'm full liao. i oni ate a mouthful of rice n i was damn full already. so u can imagine hw much appetisers we had b4 dat ( n oso i think the rice is abit too sweet for me).
after dinner, there were tons of jokes by our dear sharon n weihua. they cant stop suaning each other la.....laugh until limpeh ham bin at nite. hahaha......
yesterday was fun too. i had my best pool session of my life. so funny.
HZ n i went grandlink for a pool session after we had smelly beancurd across the street. n guess wat.
we played for 3 hrs.
total 9 games, limpeh lost 7.
nt to mention dat HZ (aka seh wang) was my disciple.
throw face la.
i kept hitting the white ball in after my 1st shot lor. until i cant tahan myself. i'd lied to myself, calling dat 旗开得胜 la, but apparently, it was nt la. kept losing.
then HZ told me that there might b smth wrong w the cue (after 5 losses). so i went to change one.
ta da.....i won the nxt game.
knn
i noe she purposely one rite. win already shiok shiok then tell me.
but she was the MVP eventually la. cos her incidence of the white ball going in was like 80% of the time.
so bloody funny.
we were so high after each game (laughing non stop, machiam drunk) that we've decided to shout "huat ah!!!" after the white ball go in everytime.
machiam xiao lang geng.
now i noe y there were no one beside us despite that there were empty tables around us.
they muz hav tot that we r mad.
hahaha
so fun.
but, i didn't sleep well last nite.
i'm having a very bad back ache.
it will rain soon. these few dyas i'm sure. n a v heavy one.
so pain......
sigh. lao lang is like dat one la.
dun laugh.

Wats wrong????

我终於还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘著小雨
心跳的声音 像舞动奇迹
你看著我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
你那麼冷静 忽远又忽近
我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终於了解
原来为爱流的眼泪 也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你
当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己 可以为爱那麼坚定
只想爱你
好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定 究竟爱我还是逃避
Sorry我还是不会放弃爱你

sigh
when will i have the chance to hear someone say these to me.
most prob nt in this life bah.
anyway, nt in good mood today. i realise smth really annoying.
we tend to hav the "need" to spend more money when we r broke.
i need to buy a pair of pants (refer to the previous post). badly.
i need to go fix my vcr. i broke it last weekend, while trying to fix it. broke the spring inside. even my dad shook his head when he saw the crippled metal.
sigh. so suay.
tons of ppl going to resign from here soon. wonder y the company still can function. there is absolutely no loyalty here. zero. everyone was juz waiting to get paid n the yr end bonus.
lousy company. full of stupid management ppl whom oni noes how to make noise n ask us to key reports, going for stupid courses.
waste of time.
n while the works had finally started for my burnt kitchen, the noise n smell is driving me crazy. i'm having a v bad headache now. can't they juz stop banging n drilling?????
ahhhhhhh......
headache.
wat a grouchy post.
gah.

The beast is at it again!!!!

if u feel bored recently, let me entertain u w a story.
the below story is based on TRUE (n i mean true) events of life.however, the names had been changed to protect the identities of the victims.
dun ask me who. u shd noe.
here goes.


long long time ago (nt so long la), earth was juz a huge piece of land. as there were no boundaries around, there were numerous wars between humans and beasts, fighting for the control of land. eventually, the human race won the war as they were smarter (u bet), n oso more good looking (of cos la) than the beasts. bcos of the long war, the beasts were near extinct, except for one. however, humans tot that one beast won't do any harm to their race, so they choose to ignore its existence n get on w life.
the beast was left alone.
maybe it was due to the loneliness that sets in, the beast started to hav illusions n delusion. it tot that it is the most good looking creature on earth, w mighty powers n powerful resources (note, this is delusion). so nt long after the war, the beast strikes again.
it proceeded by be-friending the princess (part of delusion too, it was actually an old woman) of the human race, tried to get close to her.the old woman was lonely too, so she accepted it as her fren. the beast eventually fell in love w the old woman, thinking dat she loves him too. however, we all noe that it is nt true. the old woman was juz loney.
one fine day, the old woman's husband came bk from a long long excursion (dun ask me what. juz part of the story) n found the beast in his hse. pissed, the old man shooed the beast out of his hse, turned around, n killed the old woman.
the beast was devastated. he vowed to revenge.
the old man did a good job by chasing the beast out of the hse, so as appreciation, the king invited the old man for a dinner session at the palace M (dun ask me y M. ur IQ shd b high enuff to noe).
dinner was fantastic, n the old man enjoyed alot. the royalties were v friendly n nice to the old man. the old man was happy. after dinner, the royalties brought the old man to the backyard for a chat. they were chatting by the river happily, when they saw the beast approaching. the beast saw the old man so happy (broken english, but hack), it buay song. so, it jumped onto the old man n started to roar at him (y roar oni la, bo ji). the old man shouted back. after a raoring war, the beast released the old man n ran away.
as it ran, a script fell out from the pocket (yes, it still wear clothes. civilised world, mind u) of his pants.
one of the scholar from the palace was an expert in beast-teo-logy, so he translated the script into english for ur better understanding.
info of the script is as below:

Regards to what pple say perhaps they r jealous. That all. I dun give a damn to them. Y cared about how pple look at me??? In life, I know that I am a step ahead of them. Have a farm (aka career), bull-cart (aka car) and powerful martial arts (aka degree) in the coming next year
(oh, so mighty huh? but y u still lost the war to humans? obviously, u need to re-look into ur assests and the std of ur evaluation.)

Perhaps, in life, understanding, forgiving and empathy will make the world a better place.
(huh? who is the one whom jumped onto the old man n roared at him?)

So talkative last time now become so quiet
(u v quiet now meh? always ask stupid questions n act smart.)

Pls be a man; a real man
(u r nt even one. shouting at ppl openly doesn't make u one either)

Show me that you are a man; a real man; not a man holding your pants like an ant
(aiyo, y u like ant so much? tell u already, u r nt even one. anyway, y muz show u? u wan to c penis ah?)

end of story. a bit boring though. but mind u, it it a true story.
the world is juz full of bad losers n morons.

生命是很脆弱的

我想在这里分享一些我个人的想法。
在这几天里，我又感觉到生命是很脆弱的。在这一秒，你爱的人或许还在你身边，但或许下一秒，他就会消失了。
这几天就看到了两个这样的例子。
澳洲的鳄鱼先生在几天前被stingray刺死了。面对凶狠的鳄鱼，他从不畏惧，但却被一只杀伤力不大的stingray刺中心脏，一命呜呼。
多残忍的悲剧啊。
正当我们还在为此事错愕不已时，另一个天意弄人的悲剧发生了。但正因为他的名气没有鳄鱼先生来得大，所以很少人留意。
十四岁的陈冠铮在8月31日遇到车祸，在昨天凌晨2点30分去世了。如果大家有观看昨晚U频道播出的一个节目(忘了叫什么)，你会知道，他就是那个刚刚做完骨髓移植，回到校园的癌症斗士。他十二岁患上了血癌， 却没放弃生命。在节目上，他说：“十二岁就死了，太早了吧。我还有很多事没做。我要好好念书，然后上大学。”
一个对生命充满希望的小孩，一个对未来充满了斗志的勇士，就这样，与世长辞了。在车祸时，他正和妈妈还有弟弟过马路。鲁莽的司机撞了人后却逃走，剩下错愕的妈妈和弟弟在现场。
老天真会开玩笑。给了他一个生存的机会，却又把它拿走。
冠铮，希望你在天堂能快快乐乐的。
在你父母心中，你是个最勇敢的孩子。他们将以你为荣。
god bless.


PS：请好好珍惜身边的人。因为他们随时会消失在你眼前

War of my life

last nite was the turning point of my life.
anybody reading this pls give me compliments n encouragement. no sneering pls.
i nv noe i will do it in my life.
i nv noe.
ok, here is the incident.

i was half asleep at 12.10am this morning, my sis was doing some stuff for her bf on her bed.then, i heard a scream from my sis. shocked, i woke up immediately. she was jumping out of her bed, hiding behind me as i stood up. then she started crying hysterically. then, she told me.
"there was a lizard on my bed."
knn.
ppl whom noe me long enuff shd noe that i really really hav this phobia of lizards. big, small, any color, any designs (yuck!!!). i will die when i c one near me.
there my sis was, hiding behind me (while pushing me infront to die la), crying until she's going to faint.
my god.
this is traumatic.
i shooed her into the living room, while i went to my parent's room to ask for help.
my mum woke up reluctantly, went into the room. apparently, the lizard hid when she's there. she even fliped my sis's mattress. not there.
my mum was so pissed, kept scolding my sis, saying that she saw the wrong thing. then she went bk to the room, warned me "u better dun wake me up again"
my sis was still crying in the living room at this time.
suddenly, i hav a hunch. i think it muz b there.
fed up, i fliped my own mattress too, pillows, bolster.....
not there.
then, i looked at the pile of notes i hav on the floor. i pulled all out one by one.
then
it came running out from one of the files.
can u imagine hw close i was w it.
it crawled out frantically towards the door, hid under my Mayday's score/book.
i stepped hard on it (the book la). the lizard ran out.then.....
it crawled towards the wardrobe.
xiao ah!!!! i cant imagine wat will happen if it did. eventually i will hav to take out all the clothes to hunt for it.....
i will nt let it happen
in the nick of time, i picked up a copy of newpaper n whacked hard on it. 3 times.
guess wat.
i killed it.
I KILLED A LIZARD!!!!!
my god.
in the process of killing, i was roaring w fear + excitement, as a result, i woke my parents up (again, this time, both of them came out). my mum was furious. however, when she saw me shaking on my sis's bed, announcing to her dat i've killed the lizard (yes, she was SO suprised), she sort of cooled down a little bit. she even helped me to clear the "dead body" away. when she did that, i asked her "r u sure it is dead?".
she said " ya lah, u wan to c or nt" (walking to me, showing me the "body").
"NO, NO!!!! I BELIEVE U!!!!!" (me still shaking).
dats it.
my experience w the lizard.
i will do a spring cleaning this weekend.
after all the commotion, my sis was led into the room again.
apparently, she was tired from the all the crying that she fell asleep within 20 mins.
snore some more.
me?
adrenaline + cortisol level to the max, i stared into blank space until this morning.
so much for being a hero for killing the pest.
so shack now.
say i'm mighty.
say.

I need good food

ok, i need good food.
i think i gana deprive. i dreamt of eating abalone (machiam the size of my hand) last nite.
damn.
i muz stop dreaming of food.
who's going to give me a treat?


if the above cannot, brunch oso can.
at the greenhouse, ritz carlton.

damn.

suddenly i realised. i've forgotten how oysters taste like!!!!!

I NEED GOOD FOOD!!!!!

驿(续)

火车站的候车室时常坐著一位打扮整齐的中年妇人，
手里抱著一个老式皮箱， 游目张望，似乎在期待什么。
第一次见到妇人是他高中的时候，
每天夜里从桃园通车到台北补习，深夜十一点回到桃园。
妇人总是准时地坐在候车室的木椅上，等待著。
只是不安的眼神，端整的打扮， 好象在等待著某一位约好的人。
起先他没有特别留意她，可是时间一久，
尤其是没有旅客的时候，妇人就格外显得孤寂。
有一天，他终于下定决心在候车室等待那妇人离去。
一直到深夜落雨，一直到凌晨一点， 妇人才站起来，走到候车室的黑板前，
用粉笔写著：水，等你没等到，我先走了，英留。
那时他才知道，原来候车室长久以来的这则留言是出自那妇人。
后来车站的老人告诉他， 妇人已经在候车室坐了二十几年了。
有人说她疯了；有人说曾看见她打开皮箱， 箱里装的是少女时代的衣服；
大部分人都说，在二十几年前的一个夜晚，
英和她的水约好在车站会面，要私奔到某个不知名的地方，
可是叫水的那个男人却缺席了。
有一天，他回家的时候不再看到英的影子，
问了车站许多人都不知道为什么， 这风雨无阻的妇人，那一天没有来。
第二天清晨，英残缺的身体被发现在铁道上， 皮箱滚到很远的地方。
旅客留言板上有她的字迹，只改了几字：
水，等你三十年，我先走了，英留。


就这样断了线
就真这样不再相见
飞出了时间飞出天边
飞到另外一个没有我的天
经过许多年所有的眷恋
飘浮在时空里没有终点
人生是一张泛黄的相片
而我站在车站静止的画面

I've written a story 6 yrs ago based on the above.......interested party pls take it from me. hahaha

machiam popular writer.

Baring my all

i think ppl around me dun like me at all.
serious.
after the traumatic "pool uncle" experience, smth worse happened.
i bared my arse to all the ppl at my work place for a day last week.
literally.
there was a hole on my pants (at the butt area), n didn't c it.i happily wore it to work n oni realised it after i reached home. strictly speaking, i showed my arse to the ppl on the streets as well.
N NOBODY TOLD ME ABT IT!!!!!
power rite.
from the incident, i there r 2 conclusions:

1) I have a very very attractive/nice arse. irresitable.
2) the ppl dun like me + my arse is irresitable.

I would wan to believe that it is due to the 1st reason.
bah. wth.
btw, i look like a lobster now. gana sun burn (again) yesterday .
so dun touch me when u c me in the streets.
juz tell me that i hav a nice arse.
hahahaha

Like dat oso can again?

damn it. the i juz finished typing then gana bounced out.
knn.
anyway, HZ told me that her colleagues found xiao qiang's legs in their bee tai mak soup yesterday. yuck. can u imagine. the worse thing of all is that they found the legs oni after they had finished eating.....puke.....luckily it's nt HZ whom found it. but come to think of it, no diff. cos they shd come from the same soup base and the same batch of bee tai mak.....eeeeee......(i can feel HZ staring at me now).
toking abt food, i hav been dreaming abt food lately. for the past few weeks, i've been eating alot in my dreams. y huh? gana deproved when i'm awake?
i decide to investigate.
http://www.dreammoods.com

guess what?

Eating
To see food in your dream, represents physical and emotional nourishment and energies. The different types of food can symbolize a wide range of things. Generally, fruit is symbolic of sensuality. Frozen foods may imply your cold emotions and frigid ways. Eating certain foods refers to qualities that you need to incorporate within your own self.
To dream that you are eating with others, denotes prosperous undertakings, personal gain, and joyous spirits.
To dream that you are overeating or not eating enough, signifies your need and lack of spirituality and fulfillment in your waking life. Food can represent love, friendship, ambition, sex or pleasure in your life. Thus, food is seen as a metaphor to fulfill and gratify our hunger of love and desires.
To dream that someone clears away the food before you finish eating, foretells that you will have problems and issues from those beneath your or dependant upon you.

hmm.....
i dun feel it dat way leh......

digress.
i tell u, i seriously think that i hav a weird family.
my bro was telling me this last nite.

bro:" eh, i think i hav prob"
me:" is it? ur menses come ah?" (still focusing on the tv show, nv look at him)
bro:" tsk, no la"
me:" then?"
bro:" my here pain for few days liao" (he moves his hand to his right lower abs, then moving it to his lower back)
me:" huh? aiya, u got spasm la" (eh, familiar leh)
bro:" is it?" (looked at me doubtfully)
me:" ah then? u think u hav kidney failure meh?"
bro: (* smiles sheepishly at me)
me:" xiao ah u. kidney failure wun feel pain one la"
bro:" is it? then kidney will hav spasm meh?"
me:" wah lan eh. i mean ur muscles la. xiao ah u" (ignores him, conitnue watching tv)
after 5 mins.
bro:" wei wo dian zhan deng jiang shi jie zhao liang...." (starts singing the NKF song, waving his hands around)
me:" huh? u xiao ah?"
bro:" i tot i hav kidney failure mah"
knn.
wah lau eh.
y my siblings all like dat one. wan to ask me then dun believe dr. phua.
i think it is in the genes.
it muz b.
like dat oso can.