盛夏光年

watched this shw yesterday. it left a tinge of sadness in me.
though the story is quite different from that of the novel itself, i quite like the way the director had done it.
淡淡地、简单的爱和感动。
却又是那么重要、那么的深刻.........
爱，真的能分对错吗？

我们，真的只是好朋友吗？

我喜欢这样和你在一起

喜欢，就告诉他啊！

我很害怕这孤独的感觉

“我们不是好朋友吗？好朋友就应该什么都能说啊！”

“如果我告诉你这个秘密，你还会把我当好朋友吗？我不只是把你当好朋友而已，我是真的喜欢你！”

<<盛夏光年>>
正行和守恒是镇上小学里的同班同学，正行是班长，但守恒却是令人头痛的坏小孩，一天到晚惹麻烦。某天，到台北市立天文馆户外教学，也同时转来一位女同学--佳慧。佳慧爸妈离婚，跟著妈妈不情不愿转学到乡下，心情已经够糟，却又在参观途中，因为守恒的恶作剧，而扑倒、弄坏了天文馆里的模型。出了这么大的糗，让她中途从参观途中离开，再也不肯回到班上。佳慧也就因此只做了正行和守恒一天的同学。然而，这件事却从深深烙印在他们 三人心里。 　　因为这件事，守恒被医生判定为过动儿。在深入了解守恒调皮捣蛋的原因其来有自后，老师派正行去帮忙守恒适应校园生活。正行原本不情不愿，但在帮助守恒走进学习正轨的过程中，却开启了两个陌生心灵、两个差异极大的世界的交流，正行反而因此更加了解守恒稀奇古怪的世界，打开他本来被规范得好好的乖宝宝世界，一个好学生和一个坏孩子，成了好朋友。
　　高中时代，在正行的影响之下，加上体育成绩优异，守恒 也考上跟正行一样的高中，并且度过了令人头痛的阶段，长成一个帅气的青少年。正行仍是那么优异斯文，在校刊社还认识了一个女性的好朋友--惠嘉，两人间似乎有著淡淡的情愫。但也就在此同时，正行发现他自己对守恒，也开始有了超越好朋友的情分。在一次正行与惠嘉相约上台北西门町玩的过程中，惠嘉发现了正行的秘密，但她也答应帮正行保守，永不泄露出去。
　　正行害怕面对自己身体里可能的真相，于是开始躲著守恒，再也不去篮球场上看守恒打球了。守恒遍寻不着正行，却发现惠嘉出现在球场上。惠嘉因为发现正行的秘密，也对正行喜欢的对象，产生了无限好奇。三个人之间微妙的友情、爱情关系，开始产生微妙的倾斜。
　　联考前夕，一场影响守恒是否能考上大学的关键球赛。仅管守恒期盼正行来为他加油，但正行终究选择了缺席，独自一人自我放逐来到他曾和惠嘉一起来过的西门町。倒是惠嘉来到球场，看守恒打球，就在这一晚，守恒和惠嘉有了第一次的交谈，彼此间也产生了异性间的好感。
　　心绪烦乱让正行在联考中失常，却也因此和守恒又同在一间大学里就读，并一边在南阳街补习班里准备重考。如愿考上理想大学的惠嘉，则正式和守恒成了一对男女朋友，但守恒还是三不五时拉著正行去做任何事，守恒并未察觉不知不觉中他对正行其实已经有了很深的依赖。921大地震当晚，在正行住处，一阵天摇地动之后，守恒终于隐隐感觉正行对他的保护和友情，有著超乎一般的浓度。但不久之后，正行就在守恒的手机里，发现守恒和惠嘉在一起的事实，因而对两人瞒著他这件事不能谅解，自弃地想逃离这一切。守恒为了挽回他和正行哥儿们的友情，竟向惠嘉提出分手。
　　惠嘉难过之余，仍守著正行的秘密，不轻易说出。正行对惠嘉这位有义气的朋友产生了更多的伶惜，却也更加不知道三人间难解的情感关系该如何收束。
　　趁著大学第一学期结束，寒假刚开始的时候，三人一起进行了一趟前往海边的旅行，那是守恒的爸爸在他小时候买来预备开发为游乐园的预定地，只是因为泡沫经济，从未完成，就荒废了。三人在宽阔的海边，说出了各自深藏在心中多年的秘密，原来，惠嘉就是小时候的佳慧。这些秘密与揭露，又将带他们前往何方呢？三人就这样在海边度过了告别轻涩前最后一段青春时光。

High Tea?

no no. i'm nt turning my blog into a food blog.

after lunch, i was feeling sleepy. then i went surfing on the net for something to perk me up.

n this perks me up.

high tea anyone?

it has been a long time since i had high tea.

oh man, give me the butter scones n jam .

n my eng bfast tea..............

My fav hawker food

ok.
i wanted to do this long time ago.
since its friday, i will do it nw.
my fav hawker food.

10)Soon Kueh

this is sort of my new love. esp those from bedok.

u hav to pan-fry the soon kueh for a while, then eat it hot w the sweet sauce n lots of chilli sauce.

power!

9)Indian Rojak/Rojak

my dad used to buy it alot. i love the fish cake n the crispy stuff (duno wat the hell it is). the best thing is of cos the prawn craker. i will eat it w lots of green chilli. spicy. beer anyone?

rojak is oso my fav. i love the turnip n pineapple. v appetising.

8)Poh Piah

i love it w lots of chilli (again). i would prefer it wout tau gay though. but well, it still taste nice w the tau gay anyway. love the egg in it. the best i've eaten is from serangoon.

7)Tau Huay

my all time fav dessert. i love it warm w some peanut dumplings (tang yuan) in it. the best is from F&B (or smth like dat).

smooth, silky, soft w dumpling's peanut filling oozing out of the dumpling when u bite it. need i say more?

6)Carrot Cake (White)

i oni love the white version of it. then u can taste the "originality" of the dish.

of cos, lots n lots of chilli is required. so far i liked the one in AMK mkt. the best i've ever eaten.

5)Chwee Kueh

bedok chwee kueh is the best. the cai por is nt salty (abit of sweetness), n the chilli is full blast wout being too oily. used to eat it almost daily in my poly days. simply love it.

4)Roasted Duck Rice

drumstick is the best for this. w the chilli, i can eat 2 bowls of rice. the crispy duck skin w the juicy meat is definitely the best combination w the rice. it will b perfect if there is a bowl of watercress soup to go w the meal.

delicious!

3)Ba Chor Mee

there r 2 versions i liked.

the dry one taste best w lots of vinegar n chilli. so far the one i ate in yishun (near interchange) is one of the better ones.

the soup version of ba chor mee is best at bedok north. i can eat 2 big bowls of it. simple noodles (very Q, sucks the soup) w good soup (natural sweetness),soft ba chor n some red chilli. my all time fav ba chor mee on planet earth.

2)Chicken Rice

i am v particular abt chix rice.

1stly, the rice. it muz nt b hard or soggy or tasteless. the rice have to b well separated w softness n flavour.

2ndly, the chix. personally, i like the white (boiled) chicken. it takes alot of skill to do it well. u hav to retain the juice of the meat, wout overcooking the chix, n oso producing the effect whereby the skin is nt too fatty or oily.

3rdly, the chilli. the chill muz carry n enhance the taste of the chix n rice, wout being too overpowering or sourish.

the best chix rice i've tasted was in my secondary sch days. it was from a stall behind my sch (AMK, blk 422). however, the auntie closed down the stall as no one wants to take over her biz. wat a waste.

the chix there r really tender n juicy, w the thin skin translucent, producing a perfect mouthfeel when u chew it. the rice is cooked juz rite, w the pandan n garlic flavor in every grain of rice. the chilli is oso perfect.

well. too bad.

no more.

and the champion goes to...............

1)Wanton Mee

my number 1 fav will b wanton mee from AMK market.

i've been a customer of that stall for 25 yrs (yes, i ate it since i'm 3yrs old. this will certainly expose my age nw).

i love the noodles (v Q), the chilli (flavorful), the char siew (nt too oily, soft n tender).

i hate wanton mee that r "wet" w seasonings. i preferred dry (n i mean really dry) noodles. this wun affect the texture of the noodles.

n the noodles used here r different from those used by others.

the best part of the noodle is the wanton soup actually. i will ask for a large bowl of soup everytime i order my noodles. i hav nv ever tasted wanton soup this nice in my 20++ yrs of wanton mee hunting.

trust me. its this good.

thats y i'm still a faithful customer after so many yrs. i can eat the noodles everyday n nt feel sick. (ok la, nt really EVERYDAY la)

yummy!

i hav a sudden urge to eat wanton mee tmr.

any takers?
what is your fav hawker food?

Updates

b4 anyone of u ask me, the previous post is nt my life story.
i wun b able to take it if i were her.
i heard dat song on the radio i rem my fren's rs w this guy.
it has been abt ten yrs.
i still feel him living inside her though.
n i had this sudden emotion in me after i heard dat song, so i wrote it down.
dun ask me who. i'm nt going to tell.

anyway, i was pretty sick for the past 2 days.
flu + sore throat + blocked ears.
slept for the whole day yesterday, n felt much better nw.
alot of things popped up out of a sudden yesterday. still need time to really digest it nw.
doc told me nt to b too stressed up.
so, i will take it slowly.
dun worry, i'll b juz fine.

失去联络

不知不觉，我们分开快八年了。
现在的你，还好吗？
听说你身边已经有了一个新的她。
她，让你幸福吗？
你们，快乐吗？
没有了我的日子，你会想我吗？
到了现在，我还是无法接受你当年离我而去的事实。
为什么你什么也没说，就断了音讯？
为什么我什么也来不及做，你就走了？
为什么我那么爱你，你却狠心地放开了我？
为什么那么多年以后，我还是那么想你？
为什么？
为什么？
你知道我会放弃一切和你在一起。
你知道我什么都会为你做。
你知道的。
我仍相信我爱的你不会那么绝情。
你是故意避开我，好让我死心。
你不想拖累我，对吗？
我情愿相信你是爱我的事实。
我情愿一辈子逃避你已经不在的事实。
我情愿一直爱你。
在远方没有我的你，快乐吗？


<<失去联络>>

没有你的日子不知怎么过
分不清黑夜和白昼
没有你的日子不知怎么过
分不清快乐和忧愁
不能过下去的生活谁能拉住我
人是风中的陀螺
转不完的困惑你就这样放开我
你就这样放开我
失去联络无所谓地生活
你就这样放开我你就这样放开我
失去联络像你的寂寞
你就这样放开我你就这样放开我
失去联络你是否忘记我

Crazy weekend

indeed.
sometimes, things juz cant b anticipated.
2 crazy chicks called me at around 9pm on friday, jio-ing me to go ONS.
i tot it was a joke at first.
then i realised dat they r serious.
xiao char bos.
anyway, i reached clarke quay within an hr.
si beh on rite.
n we club until 2am the nxt day.
pretty early if u ask me. but MQ hav the curfew.
post midnite cinderella.
so tired the nxt day.
went for dinner w HZ at geylang (smelly beancurd....yumyum), followed by a few rounds of "mvp" pool session.
y mvp?
cos we r competing for the highest-record-for-the-white-ball-to-gt-into-the-pocket award.
i didnt win (heng).
hahaha.....
still, HZ won most of the games.
every ball juz seemed to go in (including the white one of cos) when she hit them.
ta ma de.
went hm to watch a lousy soccer match, then slept.

still tired from the past few nite's activities, HZ n i met for bafst at taka's coffeebean yesterday.
went for a lousy play at jubilee hall after dat (whereby HZ fell asleep halfway.i cant even fall asleep. yes, its THIS bad).
Went shopping at MS after dinner.
juz when i'm so so so tired, we past by a shop in TPY n saw wat we were looking for, for the past 3 mths.
K(C)onan's vcd!!!!
n guess wat.
i bought all of them.
5 boxes of vcd.
207 episode.
69 pcs of vcd.
madness!!!!!
i've done a rough calculation, n if i'm nt wrong, it will take me more than 1 yr to finish all the vcds.
happy 2008.
dun believe?
look.


5 parts.
25 bucks each part.
yes, i've spent 125 bucks on vcds.
cartoon some more.
u say la.
mad or nt?

The story of R

hw things hav changed!!!
i was jus going thru some "celebrity" blog, n wat a shock i gt.
i saw one of my sec sch mate's pix in the blog.
i rem those days whereby we went to the kallang stadium together to catch the matches for the M league.
n i suddenly realised dat it was like 12-13 yrs ago.
my fren looked more or less the same (dats y i rem her), the oni diff is, ya, we all look older nw.
she look like a typical OL.
my god.
alot of things came rite up to me after i saw the pix.
hw i missed those days.
n i suddenly rem 1 pax.
R.

i had a liking for R for abt 3yrs. its juz dat i nv shw it due to the fact that 1) i wasnt sure of my "direction" then, 2) there was a boy in my class whom likes her.
well, she was close to me though.
we spent alot of time together, having tution together, went to soccer matches, hang out near her hse, went movies, ate at our fav coffee shop.......we even went bishan park n played soccer together!!!!
hw to find this kind of chick?
to add to her credit, she has the splitting image of HK actress, zhu yin (aka paul's girlfren nw).
hw's dat?
i gt good taste one.
n oso, i love the fact that (i noe, abit pervert) she really smell sweet when she's around u.
serious.
she really smell so so nice.
musky n feminine.
i can still rem the smell till nw.

ppl in my class kept gossiping abt us (cos we're really v close).
the gossip gt worse when she rejected that guy whom has been wooing her since sec 1 (for 4 yrs). it doesnt help when dat guy looks like tommy su, whom is R's idol.
i love her presence around me. n i'm sure she felt the same (cos she told me b4).
but well, things change after Y came into the pix.
apparently, Y was holding a torch for me (yes, i may look ugly, but well, there r always blind ppl around), n R knows it. when she told me dat Y liked me, i brushed it off. R was so pissed then, cos i did nt take her words seriously.
Y was a problemetic child (she still is, judging from the sms she sent me last mth), w a perverted father, n a grouchy mother plus a rebellious sis. the father always abuses her, leaving her w nasty bruises. she will always come to me n tell me her stories, sobbing her eyes out, looking for comfort.
well, as a good fren, i've always lend a listening ear, n offer whatever help i can. n yes, i did spend alot of time w her, neglecting R.
R was damn pissed then, cos Y did nt wan to share those personal stuff w her. n the most impt thing is, Y had a really nasty attitute (nt towards me though) towards "outsiders". i guess it was her way to protect herself from the so call "bad ppl".
R was cold towards Y, but still close to me.
then things happen.
Y's attutitue gt her into big trouble w one of our sch ah lian, whom coincidentally, was a good fren of R.
so sparks flew. ppl starts to take sides. n suddenly, some of my gd frens, including R, went to the other side, accusing Y for nt respecting ppl. (someone told me its bcos i really neglected some of my pals after i noe Y).
given my stubborn nature, i started to go all out for Y. n my plot works. i gt the whole class behind me, n one of my buddy from npcc (she is the da jie of XXX gang) vowed to b on my side.
so, the confrontation ended in a real ugly manner, w most of us in the conference rm, warned by the discipline master.
well, it was oso after the incident, i gt together w Y. dun ask me y. i oso duno the reason behind this mistake.
the incident ended, but the hatred between those two didnt.
R will "shoot" Y whenever she had the chance, n Y too did nt give up any chance to b sacarstic as well.
however, R was still close to me.
she still tok to me, went socer match w me.
we will still hug each other when spore scored goals, when we feel really down......
sigh.
but we lose touch after our 'o' levels.
n i heard from a sec sch fren that R is really angry w me, n told her dat she hates me to core.
R oso said dat she do nt wan to c me again.
ever.
dats y i didnt call out for her when i saw her at Mr Bean last yr.
guess i really hurt her so much then.
anyway, i heard that she's getting married pretty soon w a secondary sch teacher.
good for her.
at least, there will b someone whom will take gd care of her. n nt hurt her, like i used to.
insensitive idiot.
as much as i've regretted it, i really want to wish her well.
i will c her in my dreams then.

toking abt dreams, i was in a pretty joyous mood today.
yes, its friday.
but the main reason is...............
i dreamt of Hebe!!!!!
n we r good frens in my dream.
yes, oni in my dreams.
n i'm happy abt that.
hahaha...............

谢谢让我爱上你

谢谢让我爱上你

生命再多委屈

你不离不弃

谢谢让我牵着你手心

太美丽的熟悉

一生约定

我偶尔没把握够资格

走完这四季

谢谢让我牵着你手心

太美丽的熟悉

一生约定

走下去...........

Soooooooo funny

i laughed like hell when i saw this w my sis last nite. what an irritating brat.
enjoy.
happy laughing.




ma,ma ma, ma ,ma ..............
hahahahahaha

WTH

wat the hell am i doing?
i kept having flashbacks recently.
dats the reason i'm nt so happy nowadays.
momo kept asking me y.
well, hw to tell? sure gana scolded.
i think i will b traumatised for my life.
i tried to let it go.
trust me, its nt easy.
the inner me is crying for help. but i duno hw to.....u noe, help.
i hate myself for nt being able to cntrl my emotions. it seemed like i will b pretty affected by small things (eg. a song, smth ppl say, or smth she used to say......)
freaking hell.
i hate it.
i hope the memories stop haunting me.
i juz wan to hold on to watever i hav rite nw.
spare me pls.
its driving me crazy.
go away.

anyway, i may face a dilemma pretty soon.
things r nt set yet, so i wun share it here.
wait till everything's cfm.
we shall c hw.
HZ asked me, whether i want to b a small monk in a big temple, or a big monk in a small temple.
my choice was pretty obvious.
i wan to b the big monk.
to hell w the big temple.
i'm nt interested.
that is if i hav a choice.
if nt, i hav to stay in that big temple.
we shall c hw.
update again.

oh damn it!
i juz rem that i had nt practiced playing the piano for the past 2 days!!!
shit.
will nt b able to play it on fri lesson.
shit shit shit.
i need to practice today liao, or else, my instructor will puke blood on fri.
n no amt of music instinct will b of any help.
*wink to HZ*
hee.
piano piano.
i wan to go hm nw.
XIAN!!!!!

i'm listening to 933 nw n its playing karen mok's "yin tian".
suddenly tot of MQ.
hahaha
hey babe, we need to party la.
when when?
zor gang hor miss soh.

Neoprints update

k, WK has been chasing me for this.

here u go.

e neoprints we took dat day.

we agreed to make oursleves to look ugly.but look. wth is MQ n WK doing? purposely make us look ugly so dat they can look pretty. n wats up w all the mushroom la......n y my head gt a ribbon one? sickening.

this is my personal fav.

but duno y the top look so crowded

this is damn classic. the look on our face is damn funny. actually, we were supposed to cntrl the speed of the machine by pushing the buttons. but well, we cant read japanese, so we juz anyhw pressed. too late when we found out wat the buttons r for. i love mei mei's look.so funny.

MQ's idea of scissors, paper, stone. can c meh? hahaha

this one is abit blur, cos its the small one. we surround mei mei in this pix for a reason. *wink*

sorry ppl, oni for us to noe.

hee.

Something to share

something to share. may apply to most of us.

怎样忘记他

失恋后，我们总爱问：“我怎样可以忘记他？我很想忘记他，但我就是没法忘记他。”　
如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。
为什么要那么痛苦地去忘记一个人？
时间自然会让你忘记他。
现在，我请你干万别想着一头粉红色的大笨象。
请问，你想到的是什么？


你立刻就想到一头粉红色的大笨象了。
你愈努力想去忘记，你愈是无法忘记。
仍然爱着他，忘不了他，是理所当然的事，不必觉得惭愧。
有些人明明忘不了，却自欺欺人说：“我已经忘了他。”
然而，只要别人一提起他，她就无法控制自己。
有一天，你会忘记他的。真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。
有一天，你从浴室洗了一个澡出来，扭开唱机听听自己喜欢的音乐，你忽尔想起，你曾经爱过一个人，啊，原来你爱过这个人，那仿佛是很遥远的事，你已经一点感觉也没有了。
这就是忘记。
有一天，别人提起某某，你才猛然想起，你曾经爱过这个人，现在已经不记得了。
这就是忘记。
如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，
我们失去的岁月又有什么意义?

Music & Lyrics (part 2)

i always tot the lyrics of this song really fits watever situation i was in then......

"那一年默默无言只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精彩
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的美好未来
你坚决不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排
我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉
你失去的不能重来"
<<我难过>> ~ 5566

"在一个清晨醒来的孤枕边
我发现你离去的留言
那是一封装满玫瑰花瓣的信笺
里面有你撕碎的誓言
我想你一定哭泣了一整夜
终于你还是选择他温暖的肩
看着那封装满玫瑰花瓣的信笺
直到泪水模糊了我的视线
你说亲爱的不要为我悲伤不要为我流泪
请你原谅我这次挣扎许久的告别
一瓣玫瑰代表一份不舍的依恋
纪念我们曾经那么美的昨天
在一次多年以后重逢的街
你淡淡的说他已经走远
留下一封装满玫瑰花瓣的信笺
里面是他撕碎的誓言
他说亲爱的不要为我悲伤不要为我流泪
请你原谅我这次挣扎许久的告别
一瓣玫瑰代表一份不舍的依恋
纪念我们曾经那么美的昨天
可是在我的身边已经有了另一个依偎
虽然你说爱我的心其实从来没有一点改变
于是在你我转身以前
我只能无奈地还给你那封我收藏了好久
装满玫瑰花瓣的信笺
我说亲爱的不要为我悲伤不要为我流泪
请你原谅我这次挣扎许久的告别
一瓣玫瑰代表一份枯萎的依恋
别再想起曾经那么美的昨天"
<<玫瑰花瓣的信笺>> ~ 林志炫

"请你一定要比我幸福
才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦
爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福
才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数
最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊
慢慢被放逐
放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿孤不孤独
都别在乎!"
<<比我幸福>> ~ 陈晓东


sad songs aside. here r some nt so stressful ones.

"今夜星光闪耀
这次约会你先到你把头发给剪短了更有味道
我们谈着聊着每一次总又回到那些旧时光
你以前对我就很好
短暂分开的缘故
回忆变得有温度
聪明的你是否也有了新的领悟
你常说单纯就是幸福
某个人是上帝给你的礼物
我们距离有多远相隔多久
一辈子要保护
can you feel love tonight?
我想漫步云海
你每一句话都是无可取代
还是未知数的集合结果有好有坏
但最后一分钟才解开
can you feel love tonight?
只管跨大步去爱
每一刻拥有都是无可取代
半夜三更爬上楼顶
我们看着天空从黑转白
快乐就在几公尺之外
只要狂风暴雨就有你在
只有真爱才能预言未知的将来
只等我们一起努力游过时间的海
让我们承诺今天要比昨天快乐
can you feel love tonight?
我们迎接未来
爱的每一秒都是无可取代
我们经过一些事情
吹着回忆的风
然后明白原来快乐从不曾离开
原来真心无可取代"
<<无可取代>> ~ S.H.E

"好久没有吹微风的晚上
我们看着山下都市灯光
你说快乐和自由是穷人的天堂
这种想法我很喜欢
你要我闭上眼睛想像
有我看不见的一个远方
你说地球是乐园要用心去游览
这种说法多浪漫
心在飞
路很长
我们是彼此的避风港
听着你聊到从前和未来
你心里所有的梦跟我很像
oh you light up my life
所以我也希望我们心中频率都一样
梦加点感觉
思念装上翅膀
爱是无限可能的飞翔
oh—you light up my life
我想让你分享我们心动时分的梦想
这是一个开始
还是一种分享
未来正在等待不是吗"
<<恋爱频率>> ~ 许志安,许慧欣

"因为爱着你的爱
因为梦着你的梦
所以悲伤着你的悲伤
幸福着你的幸福
因为路过你的路
因为苦过你的苦
所以快乐着你的快乐
追逐着你的追逐
因为誓言不敢听
因为承诺不敢信
所以放心着你的沉默
去说服明天的命运
没有风雨躲的过
没有坎坷不必走
所以安心的牵你的手
不去想该不该回头
也许牵了手的手
前生不一定好走
也许有了伴的路
今生还要更忙碌
所以牵了手得手
来生还要一起走
所以有了伴的路
没有岁月可回头"
<<牵手>> ~ 苏芮

New song recommendation

a new song i liked.
i esp liked the chorus part. although he dun sing v well, the lyrics r nt bad.
like it.

<<其实还爱你>> ~ 阿沁


我讨厌阴天的风冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你
你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

not bad not bad.

The Phantom of the Opera

there is oni one word to describe it.

AWESOME.

they came 13yrs ago, i missed it.

i wun miss it again.

n trust me, i will b watching it again. the 2nd time.

this time, i will buy the most ex tix. (provided i can gt the tix)

it was truely fantastic.

the stage backdrop was simply majestic.

i was in great awe in the 1st scene.

all my hair stand when i heard the "phantom of the opera" (yes, the classical tune we've always heard)

i nearly cried.

simply amazing.

n i had tears in my eyes for the last scene.

i simply love it.

this will b my fav musical of all times.

Think of me ~ Chirstine

Think of me, think of me fondly, when we've said goodbye

Remember me once in a while please promise me you'll try

When you find that once again you long to take your heart back and be free

If you ever find a moment, spare a thought for me...
We never said our love was evergreen or as unchanging as the sea

But if you can still remember, stop and think of me

Think of all the things we've shared and seen

Don't think about the way things might have been...

Think of me, think of me waking, silent and resigned

Imagine me, trying too hard to put you from my mind

Recall those days.

Look back on all those times.

Think of the things we'll never do

There will never be a day when

I won't think of you

Music of the Night ~ Phantom

Night time sharpens, heightens each sensation

Darkness stirs and wakes imagination

Silently the senses abandon their defenses...
Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendour

Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender

Turn your face away from the garish light of day,

Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light

And listen to the music of the night
Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!

Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!

Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar!

And you'll live as you've never lived before...
Softly, deftly, music shall caress you

Hear it, feel it, secretly possess you

Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,

In this darkness which you know you cannot fight

The darkness of the music of the night...
Let your mind start a journey through a strange, new world!

Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before!

Let your soul take you where you long to be!

Only then can you belong to me ...
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!

Touch me, trust me, savour each sensation!

Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in

To the power of the music that I write

The power of the music of the night...
You alone can make my song take flight

Help me make the music of the night...

Learn to be lonely ~ Minnie Driver
Child of the wilderness, born into emptiness

Learn to be lonely, learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you, comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely, learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world there are arms to hold you

You've always known your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness, child of the wilderness

Learn to be lonely, learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely, life can be lived, life can be loved alone

no plans to watch it? go bang urself.

watch it.

The Royal Battle of the Ji Lengs / Useless family conversation

fierce.
dats wat i can say.
abt 12am this morning, smth creepy happened in my hse.
no. there r no ghosts.
due to the rain, 2 orange (color) big lizards crawled into my bathroom via the oni window in the toilet.
2.
1 is enuff to scare me out of my wits. n there were 2.
lucky i nv c them when i go pee at 11.59pm.
my sis saw n came into the rm, (i was preparing to sleep) spoke to me in a dead tone.
"eh, did u c anything juz nw?"
i immediately noe she saw lizards.
u c, we hv been traumatised so many times b4, so from the way she asked me, i already noe wats going on.
so ya.
she saw 2.
one frantically crawled out of the window when it saw my sis, while the other one insisted to stay in my warm bathroom.
smart.
then i asked my sis " y nt gt this chance to gt rid of them? tell mum la."
my sis say " u tell lor"
smart again.
ppl whom noe my mum well will noe dat she dread doing this kind of "big project" in the middle of the nite, while she's preparing to turn in as well.
jus when i was contemplating whether to go outside to tell her, my mum walked into my rm, asked me to fold my clothes.
sweet!
immediately, i used my frantic tone n told her "mother, there r 2 VERY BIG ji lengs in the bathroom"
my mum ,in turn, asked me "where"
hahaha.
dat is a sign of approval.
so i told her.
she opened the bathroom door, took baygon w her.
juz as she proceed w the battle, she laughed at me (which is really v abnormal of her), n asked me to close my door.
the oni thing is can deduce from her royal battle is dat the amt of baygon used to kill the JLs r of an atrocious amt.
i kept hearing the baygon go off.
psssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssstttttttttttttttttt
my god.
fierce ah.

as my sis n i were too traumatised, we began to think of the reasons, as in hw in the world the JLs make their way to our bathroom.
the oni explaination is thru the window.
n there is oni one stupid exhibitionist in my family whom likes to open the bathroom window when he/she (yes, he/she) was bathing. he/she claimed dat he/she hav to put the shower gel there.
my brother.
stupid ass.
n he was watching the tv in the living rm while my poor mum battled.
nv help la.
so i told my sis to sms him in the living rm (we dun wan to go out as 1- we were nicely tucked in bed, 2- we dun wan to b caught at the frontline of the battle).
the msg is as below.

"Eh, stop opening de windows in de toilet. u allowed 2 ji lengs in. put (ur things) on the stupid floor nxt tym u bathe. we all put on the floor wan. if (me) saw de window open (nxt time) will throw u down to meet the ji lengs.she is serious.haha dun open de door (to our rm).we slping liao. haha"
*pls note dat those words in the brackets r nt actually in the sms. it is for ur easy understanding*

we still cant sleep after she msg my bro.
then, she told me "eh, the sms remind me of the movie 'meet the robinsons'"

me: ah then
sis: no mah, like dat hor we can make a shw call "meet the ji lengs"
me: ya la, then the whole shw oni consist of a 3 sec scene of me throwing ur bro down, w 2 ji lengs crawling on the floor, then the end liao (n i proceeded to make dat body-crashing-from-a-great-height-machiam-the-aeroplane-crash sound)
sis: (laughing non stop) eh, the shw oni 3 sec ah?
me: ya la then. even the ji lengs hav more scene than ur bro.
sis: no la, then the closing (whereby the screen oni shw the director/actors/producer names, blah blah blah) rite, half n hr. longer than the actual shw.
me: wah lan eh, where gt closing longer than shw one?
sis: gt. "meet the ji lengs" lor.
me: .........
i was laughing like hell at this pt of our conversation. cant gt to sleep after dat. TOO excited (ham bin)
meet the ji lengs.
steady.
sponser, anyone?

Music & Lyrics (part 1)

most of u ppl out there tend to remember tunes of a song instead of the lyrics.
sigh.
hw pathetic this fact is for the ppl whom wrote lyrics for the songs.
in fact, many ppl can compose melody, but nt many can write lyrics.
so for me, i really respect composers whom can really write lyrics well.
i wan to do a compilation of some parts of lyrics which really touched me.
this will go on forever, but to hell w it.
i juz wan to do it.
here r some of my fav. in no particular order.

"我怀念的是无话不说, 我怀念的是一起作梦, 我怀念的是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动"
<<我怀念的>> ~ 孙燕姿


"因为太了解所以很伤心
没有你只好听着风的呼吸
却有种叫做时间的东西
说没问题最后我们会痊愈
因为太了解我无法坚定
这一次会要掉眼泪的决定
有些遗憾只能一个人听
很对不起
我还是珍
惜所有的事情"
<<了解>> ~ 孙燕姿


"原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹"
<<原来>> ~ 林俊杰

"我相信我和你一定会有结局，任时光再侵袭，拥抱一样坚定，这世上有太多会消失的美丽，但你是你，所以我相信，so I believe....." Believe ~ S.H.E


"我想这就是所谓爱的代价，没有人多潇洒
爱好像燃烧的火花，会随时间升华
我想这就是所谓爱的代价，你不必避自己离开他
别去管别人怎么看你说你是傻瓜
问问你自己，你快乐吗"
<<你快乐吗>> ~ 蔡依林

"我找不到，到不了你所谓的将来的美好
我什么都不要，你知不知道
若你懂我这一秒
我想看到，我在寻找那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠，静静守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到"
<<到不了>> ~ 范范

"谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后"
<<记得>> ~ 张惠妹

"我远远看着你保持著安全的距离
却有个声音在我心里挣扎著要出去
从你眼睛看不出你是否找到新恋情
那抹忧郁刺痛著我不可能忘记
我说服我自己没有我你会更顺心
可能你已经云淡风轻当我是个曾经
是不甘心还是依然爱著你
在告别之后让它随风去(记得我曾经那么爱著你)"
<<说不出的告别>> ~ 林志炫

"幸福是看得透而不是舍不得她的所有" <<触摸>> ~ 陈伟联

"你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路"
<<最近>> ~ 李圣杰

"我的心还为你留一扇窗
等你想起我回来看一看
自由属于你
爱你就该放手让你去想去的地方
怎么能相信我们已走散
不会再停站希望已风干
一样的月光冷冷的照在两个人不重叠的路上"
<<留给你的窗>> ~ 伍思凯

"你已含着泪水转身而去
我却抱着盼望停留在原地
一段并不长的距离
爱却跨不过去
天空无语 海无尽"
<<曾经爱你、永远爱你>> ~ 伍思凯

"有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你
把你放在我心中
对你的声音你的影你的手
我发誓说我没有忘记过
而关于你选择了现在的他
我只能说我有些难过
我也真心真意的等过"
<<听说爱情回来过>> ~ 林忆莲

"说看透只是欺骗自己
风雨中花怎能不哭泣
我痛苦的泪落向何处
笑看自己走入风中雨中
说看透只是欺骗自己
这颗心已经被你烙印
只恨我自私贪着爱恋
忘了你的容颜已经改变"
<<看透>> ~ 许茹芸

to be continued..............

Super tired / confused memories

i'm really damn shacked rite nw.
wah lau eh.
went hm at 1 plus this morning.
simply crazy.
this was the 1st time i sing ktv until i pek chek (sorry for the singlish, but i'm really too tired to think rite nw).
xiao char bos!!!!!

went celebrate cum mini gathering dinner w my mdis peeps.
dinner followed by another neoprint session n ktv.
although all of us sang like devils from hell (v tired, plus my throat is in a mess), we actually sang for 3.5 hrs!!!!!
it was insane.
i'm feeling giddy nw.
too tired.
i will catch some sleep b4 i meet HZ for another round of celebration today.
damn.
i looked as if someone had really punched me hard on both my eyes.
super panada + goldfish.
or bak kak

n i hav to meet some of my buds after my piano lesson on friday.
super full "schedule" if u ask me.

anyway, i hav been getting all sorts of confused signals from my pals recently.
affairs of heart, family prob, work stuff, blah blah blah.
u name it, they hav it.
fine, i understand that we all hav probs at diff stages of our life.
the thing is, most of my buds do nt noe wat they wan/hw to handle it.
although i cant help much in their personal probs, it does take a toll on me.
i'm worried for them.
c'mon. i cant simply say its nt my prob rite?
they r my best buddies.
n ppl whom really noe me well shd noe hw i treat my frens.
ok, enuff say.
summary. i'm worried.
stay strong ppl!

due to all the random things that happened over the weeks, my confidence in relationships (family, frens, love....everything) is drained to an all time low.
no, nothing happened to me. i'm fine n happy, thank you v much.
but from wat i've seen over the weeks, it makes me wonder, wat makes a person treasure their loved ones?
i felt sick to noe that most of the r/s n feelings we c does nt equate to wat it really is.
do we really need to act in front of ppl?
y act tough? y fake ur smiles? y lie abt ur feelings?
Y DID U JUST SMILE & GAVE ME THAT LOOK AGAIN?
y?
dun look at me like dat.
i noe too well wat it means.
i got alot of that "confused" eyes recently. so, dun test me.
juz tell me that u dun feel good. juz tell me that u r confused. juz tell me that u r sad. juz tell me that u r disappointed. juz tell me that u really cant forget him.
juz tell me to shut the hell up.
juz tell. i dun wan to guess.
n chances r i'm always (99.999%) right.
freaking hell.

i'm digressing like hell.
forgot wat i really wan to say juz nw.
too tired.
anyway, pt is, dun fake in front of me.
chances r, u wun get away w it.

my dear darlings.
dun worry to ask for help.
i will always be there (although i cant help much).
u noe i will try my best.
u shd noe.

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Someone out there whom think like me

i found this on someone's blog.

"最近，听见好些朋友在办离婚。。
想了就心寒。。
我想不通，为什么结了婚，这么轻易就说离婚呢？
难道结婚是种游戏吗？有这么儿戏吗？我想我真的不明白。
当两个人决定结婚时，不就是为了想一辈子在一起吗？
那如果是这样，为什么动不动就说离婚呢？
没有孩子还好。。
如果有了孩子才来离婚，孩子这么办？
没想过孩子的成长问题吗？
孩子的幼小心灵呢？
你可能说，两个人都和不来，不能勉强在一起。。
或，都没感觉了，为了孩子而在一起也是痛苦。。
对。。
那为什么刚开始不把这些问题先想清楚才结婚呢？
决定结婚时，你不知道两个人是要相守到老的吗？
能这么快就没感觉了，那你们能有多爱对方？
如果原因是合不来，婚前就该知道了嘛！
知道了还要坚持结婚的话，就该互相容忍。。互相配合。。
那你说没办法做到的话，就不要结婚！
不明白。。。
嗨。。。"

its exactly hw i felt recently.
good to noe someone out there think like me.
cheers, miss dan dan.

Woo Hoo!!!!

i'm freaking happy nw.
i logged into espn reluctantly this morning, preparing myself for the v worse.
then i saw this heading.
"Majestic united stormed into the semis"
i opened my eyes big.
scrolled down.
Man U won this morning. n the scoreline. 7-1.
7-1 leh!!!!!
mad ah?????
i mean, i dun even expect them to win!!!!
hahahahahahaahahahahahaha..................
i cant stop smiling to myself after i gt the news.
then i clicked on chelsea.
pui.
score winner in 90th min again.
quote from my sis.
"eeyer, again? score 90 min then wooo......"
apparently, we had enuff of them scoring in the 90th min, n act as if they were so mighty, doing the "flying" celebration.
when they were really lousy.
pui.
hope u fall on ur face nxt time.

anyway, nothing can dampen my joyous mood rite nw.
nt even when my boss called to inform me abt the sickening meeting on monday.
bleah.
i'm still v happy nw.
heeee......
Man U rulez.
fuck off chelsea.

An exciting week ahead

i spent my long weekend rotting at hm.
i played my "onimusha" , slept, watched tv.
dats it.
oh, i did went to si ma lu to pray.
end up gana squeezed into the temple. hw would i noe its guan yin ma's bday????
anyway, pay my respects, n ate bfast at coffeebean w HZ.
dats it. i stayed at hm for 3 days after that.
cos HZ is having her papers this week, n some of my pals r also studying hard for their exams, i hav to stay at hm.
nt dat bad though. gt back some energy.
one bad news though. i found 2 ulcers at the back of my throat again.
think its time for me to consult an ENT specialist.
will do it by saturday.
meanwhile, i hav exciting prog for the weekend.
meeting some pals on wed to celebrate their "graduation" *winks*
meeting HZ for jap food on thurs to celebrate her "graduation". hahaha.
piano lesson on friday.
do some shopping on sat.
phantom of the opera on sunday.
woo hoo!!!!
i cant wait.

My what????

what the hell.

1+1

i was suprisingly calm when u told me abt it.
nt dat i anticipated it, but i noe i cant do much abt it.
even i myself was shocked by my own response.
i knew smth was nt right when u cracked up easily.
it was juz nt u.
as much as i wanted to tell u to really consider it carefully, i wanted to tell u to do whatever u think is right.
the problem is, is there a right solution to it?
it hurts, definitely.
esp when u noe u really cant do anything abt it.
darling, there is no right or wrong answer.
the most impt thing is, r u happy w this man?
it is nt easy to admit the mistake nw, i understand (dat is if it's really a mistake).
u told me dat u do nt hav the confidence.
i can c from ur eyes dat u r confused.
but sad to say, u still hv to decide for urself.


你当初会嫁给他是因为你爱他。
这是无庸置疑的。
重要的是，你还爱他吗？
想一想你当时嫁给他的原因、和他经历的风雨。
你，真的要放手吗？
还是，可以改变自己的想法，去迁就彼此呢？
婚姻，并不是要求对方能为你做什么，而是，你能为对方做什么。
绝对不容易，但也不难。
关键在于，你肯或不肯。
1+1=两个人。
世界不是只绕着你打转。
当时那份爱，在哪里？

but ultimately, the decision is still yours.
n u noe i trust dat u will make the right decision.
u noe dat i will support ur decision, no matter what it is.

What will u do?

i've encountered the following scenerios during the past few weeks.
i'm curious though.
what will others do if they were me?

scenerio 1:

u were having ur haircut. u happen to noe ur hairdresser pretty well, n thus, he starts chatting w u. however, u had a v bad day, n u do nt want to open ur mouth. will u:
1) close ur eyes n act "sleeping"
2) LL. give one word answers.
3) tell the guy to shut up.
4) ignore him.
5) others (pls specify)

scenerio 2:

u decide to keep quiet, n ur hairdresser knows that u do nt wish to tok, so he kept quiet. so during the course of the "hair cutting session", what will u do?
1) pick up a magazine n read
2) keep staring at ur hair in the mirror, c hw it was being trimmed
3) look around the saloon
4) close ur eyes n sleep
5) stare at the hairdresser

scenerio 3:

u went to the dentist over the weekend. the dentist happen to b a lady. while she's "working" w ur teeth, u hav nothing to do. will u:
1) look into her eyes
2) look at the "ufo" that is in ur mouth
3) close ur eyes
4) stare blankly in front
5) others

scenerio 4:

u applied for a job thru an agency, the consultant called u on ur hp. juz when u were abt to hang up, she asked "hav u gone for NS? y u nv go for NS?"
what will u tell her if u were me?
there r no choices for this.

c'mon ppl, give me ur answers. leave ur answers in the "comments" box.
i'm v curious hw others will react.
give me fun n innovative answers.
the winner will get a kong guan biscult from me.
hahaha.

忧客李林~我的歌，我的梦

“唱这首歌可能会掉泪。这是我和一个女生的故事，可是，我们已经分手了.....”
~忧客李林 - 林志炫

<<说不出的告别>>
回程的飞机滑进了无边的天际
一样的天气两种心情
装满回忆的行李留在原地
是爱的纪念品
这一趟旅行写完了故事的结局
没有惊叹句没有疑问句
如果我不够坚定喊出了你的名字
打破沉默的僵局
我该说对不起还是称心如意
我远远看着你保持著安全的距离
却有个声音在我心里挣扎著要出去
从你眼睛看不出你是否找到新恋情
那抹忧郁刺痛著我不可能忘记
我说服我自己没有我你会更顺心
可能你已经云淡风轻当我是个曾经
是不甘心还是依然爱著你
在告别之后让它随风去(记得我曾经那么爱著你)
这一趟旅行写完了故事的结局
没有惊叹句没有疑问句
如果我不够坚定喊出了你的名字
打破沉默的僵局
我该说对不起还是称心如意

“如果一个人一辈子能活到八十岁，那我和她在一起的八年时间便是我人生的十分之一......” ~忧客李林 - 李骥

<<十分之一>>
真的这几天我都在想
为什么这次分手和以前不一样
好像谁都没有惊慌
电话挂得如此顺理成章
我猜你现在一定让自己很忙
这样或许可以把以前的我忘光
大概你会怪我脾气倔强
不承认曾经说过要一辈子守在你身旁
可是我也有话要对自己讲
谁说我能做到从此不再沮丧
日子过的杂乱无章
常常想独自一个人去流浪
几年的相处在心里也有份量
只是我们之间的温柔早就用光
谁都不让只叫咱们不停受伤
而我还得伪装好像我总是那么坚强
告别你其实等于告别自己十分之一生的理想
又要沈浮在爱情世界里的大风大浪(喔..我也不想)
所以请你不要真的忘记我的模样
毕竟曾经把最好的留给对方

Overdue BBQ pix/What I did over the weekend

ok, i finally have the time to load my pix from my d.cam.
here is the overdue pictionary of the BBQ i had during vday.
w a group of funny chicks.

me, starting the fire (as usual)

my darling sis n her frens, AL n Yvt

i'm good. i noe.

the food!!!! the chix wings was yummy.....

chef at work

my darling was enjoying the prawn i cooked in beer.

then we saw smth v phenominal (spelling?) the crab was staring at us fiercely n oso, it was like puking. no kidding. look.

the puking crab.

went club street for dinner on fri, to pre-celebrate HZ's bday. she choose the restaurant randomly from a makan book. she tot it was casual french dining.

noticed the "stiffness"? she was overwhelmed by the ambience of the restaurant. who the hell say it was casual?????

anyway, we proceeded w ordering of our food.

escargots in claypot!!!!

my fav foie gras!!!! i will die for it.

HZ's main course. pan fried duck breast w raseberry sauce. yum.

obviously, she's happy w her choice.

my duck confit.

HZ'z dessert. warm choc cake. we tot dat the choc fudge is going to flow out when we cut the cake, so i wanted her to cut n take a pix. end up, dun hav. dat explains y the cake looked so mutated.

if u wan to noe hw the food taste like, i can tell u, its damn disappointing.

the foie gras was overcooked, everything was so salty, my cream brulee was damn bloody sweet......n HZ spilled some red wine on my white shirt. yaya, she dun mean it, but like hw bad can it be man? money nt well spent.

the oni thing nice was her pan fried duck breast. no, i'm nt going to tell u the name of the plc here. if u wan to noe, ask me privately. i'll tell u then.

we went vivo after dat to catch a movie. end up, there was nothing there which interest me. so we went st james!!!!

HZ n me looking sleepy after the meal.

the lychee martinee gal. we spent alot of time discussing "hw to hold the glass nicely"

nt bad la.

dat sums up our friday.

went for ukelele's concert on sat. but well, i dun think she's too excited abt it. nevertheless, it was a v v fantastic concert.

i noe la, i looked like hell in the last pix.

no choice la, too tired.

the concert was great. i had tears swelling in my eyes when i heard a few songs. will tok abt the songs in my nxt post. meanwhile, i'm going to gt smth to makan. its 11 am, n my bfast is nt here yet.

shall go n hav some juice 1st.

ciao.