What is going on?

i'm sick.
down w serious inflammation of my throat, w a 2-in-1 package of blocked but runny nose.
wth.
heard a smth from J n F yesterday.
they told me dat they've broken up.
they both hav someone new now, but apparently, cant forget each other, so its like, still together thing.
wtf.
i told them "want means want, dun want means dun want. where got half half one"
they replied " aiya, u dun understand la"
pls, of cos i dun.
or shd i say, i do?
perhaps i really do.
n its nt a good feeling, trust me.
n its so so unfair to the other 2 parties whom r currently attached to them.
oh man.
u still feel for the person, work hard to get the person back.
dun give me the " i believe wat is urs will eventually b urs" crap.
it will nv b urs if u sit down there n wait.
the feeling will fade away eventually.
WORK for it!!!!
god damn it, i'm so pissed by those ppl whom leave it to fate.
go rot in lonely hell. ALONE.
serve u rite.
bah.
anyway, non of my biz.
i no eyes c liao.
still, since both of them were quite close to me in the past, i sort of feel upset for them.
trust me, i noe the feeling n it hurts badly.
let him/her go.


当你握着我
说还爱我的时候
我点点头心里更难过
或许到了这时候
你不该牵着我的手
当我拥着你
说“要幸福”的时候
你点点头我暗自伤痛
或许找不到借口
该让他伴随你左右
放手要说再见
我们还有没有明天？
还想看到你的笑脸
但却因为我而改变
放手要说再见
我们再不会有晴天
多想留在你身边
但却无法做些改变

wrote the above for them.
放手会更好过
trust me.