Last day

my god.
last day of 2007. n i'm sick.
flu, sore throat.
sigh.
n my face. ALOT pimples. outbreak man.
muz b the sucking job.
did i mention that i lost 3kg? which is a happy thing la, cos i've always wanted to "slim" down abit.
but frens r telling me dat i look like hell now.
hmm.
wat do u guys think.
i think i look better now leh.
hehehe.

anyway, lets hope for the better for nxt yr.
happy new year folks!
love u guys.

Maybe i should change job

yes. ur eyes r perfectly ok.
i need to review my so call aspiration.
seemed like i cant concentrate on the job.
or was it really me?
well, apparently, i cant meet the so called standards of my boss.
she gave me a good toking to dat day.
upset.
i sort of pulled me down for a while.
meanwhile, as my probation drags on for another painful month, i may need to review whether this is wat i wan for my long term career.
we shall c how. after xmas.
i need a break.

was it really me?

The whole world is getting married?

my bro was sighing all the way this morning. until limpeh cannot tahan.
he told me that one of his fren is getting married.
kaoz, big deal.
but when i noe who, i nearly fell off my chair.
it was one of the gal whom liked my bro alot (pretty lor, but he blind, dun like her...sigh).
bro says it was short gun marriage.

i mean, i dun have anything against it.
but yet n again, cant u juz plan for ur big big fututre?

aiya, dun say so much.
sekali i tell u i getting married nxt yr (which is like 3 weeks ltr)
hahahahah

we will nv noe.

Many things happen

it has been a while since i've updated my happenings here.
many things happened recently which made me realised an important thing.
i face to face the emotion asap.
it's overwhelming (spelling???)
meanwhile, we shall c what happen after tmr.

Video

hey folks, here's the video for our "huat motar throwing stunt"
enjoy.

My graduation

ok.
WK told me dat it has been a long time since i post pix on my blog.
true.
it has been a roller coaster ride for me recently.
anyway, here r my pix for my graduation.

gowning. too busy to look at the cam.

after gowning. hair still look v nice.

Harry Potter w aura behind my head.

a v weird group photo. look at the motar. enuff say.

me n my parents

me n my lil sis n bamboo bro.

me n family

i love my darling. hahaha

ok, we were damn exhausted after like 200 photos.hahaha

after everything. we were damn tired. oh, n the hair. flat n messy. kns.

our group photo.

more photos to come.

plus one video clip of us throwing the motar.

ps MQ, YX, WK: hey darlings, where's the photos??????

冥诞

昨天是伟伦的冥诞。
我的天使，生日快乐。
希望你再天上过得开心。
我们还是很爱你，想你。

A Mei's Concert

went to A Mei's concert last nite.
was is me or wat????
i nearly fell asleep during the dance segment.
i'm sure she put in all her effort to perform....but.....
i analysed it w my fren n sis. we all tot that it was the music arrangement.
got problem.
it juz wun connect.

but, i cried from 8.30 pm to 9pm.
the slow song segment.
v touched.
ji de, zhen shi, wo yao kuai le.....
A Mei tried her best.
i give her full marks for that.

its the music arrangement. i'm sure.
A Mei still rocks!!!!
yeah.

Cowboy fallen

sigh.
jay's new album sucked.
LOUSY.
too commercialised(spelling??). do for the sake of doing.
so disappointed.
he is the last man standing. w regards to the top 3 (david tao, lee hom n him).
david tao fell out of favor donkey yrs ago after his "ghost" album.
lee hom fell flat on this new one. dunno what the hell he wans.
jay screwed himself up on this one.
upset.
where r all the good music?????
regardless of the disappointment, i've decided to give him another chance.
hope he can pull me bk on his nxt album.
or else, it will b sayonara jay.

on another note, tanya's new album is GOOD.
very tanya, v nice.
i love it.
3.5 stars out of 5.
for jay?
1 star.
Lousy.

I will be fine

I've removed the last post.
sorry to cos any negative feelings.
i wun say this kind of things anymore.
yes, i'm still v v v v down.
give me some time to sort it out.
i will stand up again.

thank u for the concern. WL, i will nt hate u la. thanks for the long email. i muz hav scare u. thanks buddy! pls come out for dinner when u r free. we hav been procasinating for TOO long.

thank u all for understanding.
i will pick myself up.

Thank you ppl

i have been drinking so much recently.
got wasted last nite.
woke up w a splitting headahce this morning.
and a bump on my head this morning. so painful.
someone told me that i knocked my head against the table last nite. well, i dun quite remember.
from now onwards, i'm going to stay away from alcohol for a moment.
liver cant take it liao. old le.

anyway, lotsa things happened recently.
S & M gave birth to their baby boy.
my lucky baby is out in this world.
he's so so so so CUTE!!!!!
look so much like WH, w S's big eyes
a pretty boy.
n yes, i bought the mattress. n i CARRIED it myself to the hospital.
ALONE.
yesh.
say i'm strong.

i'm beginning to get in terms w the things i'm facing currently.
beginning to accept what's going on.
anyway, i will b super busy for the next few weeks.
lots of deadline to be met, lots of work to do.
so if u cant get hold of me, i'm sorry. its all work work work now.

i want to thank a few ppl whom hav been showing tremendous support over the weeks.
fatcartoon, thanks for sending me the email. thanks for asking. i appreciate your kindness.
MQ,YX & K. thanks for standing by me. i felt better after that dinner w u gals dat day. love u gals.
i love my fruity gang. they r the best. standing behind me everytime. love them.
and C. thank u for all those enlightening words. i will be strong.
n all those ppl whom showed that they care, in a way or another.
thank u ppl.
i'm blessed to hav u ppl in my life.
thank u.

I've been thinking

yes folks, i've been using my brain.
work is as busy, so is my personal life.
suddenly, i juz wan peace.

while the whole world blames me for my decision, i fell flat.
yes.
i'm crushed.
dats y i need time to recover.
dun think i'm having a good time here.
i noe i deserved it.
but yet, where is the support?
nothing.
i c nothing from ppl around me.
go ahead.
hate me.
scold me.
curse me.

u noe what?
the more u do dat, the more rebellious i get.
i hate everyone now.
i'm so so tired.
spare me all those thinking.
i dun wan to think anymore.
what makes u think that i am wrong????
for your information, THIS IS MY LIFE.
i do what i wan.
i wan to screw up u oso like dat.

if u wan to screw me again, or lecture me, fuck off.
i hate u.

i need support.
anyone?

对不起

头很痛
一定是昨晚喝多了.
我知道我傷害了你.是我不對.
請你恨我,好嗎?
我沒有騙你.真的沒有.
只是,可能,我變了.
而這個變化卻讓我傷害了你.
是我不好.跟你沒關係.一切都是我的錯.

请你好好照顾自己，好吗？
希望王后的日子，我们依然是朋友。
谢谢你那么多年的付出。

对不起。

New song

已经结束的爱情
为何还游荡在心里
努力试着把你忘记
却往往把你想起

你曾波动我心的旋律
让我爱得不能自己
你曾分享我心中秘密
让我放肆地依赖着你

你已远去
剩下我孤独的身躯
心却在原地
默默守候枯萎的爱情

你已远去
留下我寂寞的身影
心却在想你
默默承受孤单的悲泣

心情糟透了

最近思绪有点混乱。也不知道为什么。
一些想忘记的回忆突然间涌了上来。
心情满糟的。
再加上即将离开一个很喜欢的工作环境。
更混乱了。

dun tell me all those crap like "relax la", "life is like that la"......
i noe more than u do.
shut up.

feeling lost at the moment. which really sound so irony since i'm dying to get out of her few weeks ago.
humans r complex animals.
w complex emotions.

是非题

this song is good.
new song by fan wei qi

<<是非题>>

每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心却只向着你前进
也许爱越单纯越着迷

你是窗外另外一片风景
在你眼里我是什么关系
你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里
何时能诚实面对自己

我们从不开口那个言语
那一句我爱你
永远像少了勇气
别人都说
我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心

我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题
总让人伤透脑筋
我会期待
爱盛开那一个黎明
一定会有美丽的爱情

My office

we took some photos for company banners.
these r unofficial ones. i managed to "smuggle" them from the photographer.


this photo needs to b photoshopped to take out somebody whom shd nt b in it.


i like this photo. everyone is so happy


pardon my big mouth. we were shouting "huat ah".
ok, i noe, the bigger the mouth, the more huat. so u noe y i open so big liao.

I'm going. YES!

yes ppl.
for those whom r worried abt me, good news.
i've got a new job which pays me better n w better benefits.
starting 1st Oct.
COOL!

i juz handed my letter to that YDL's gf.
sucked.
she kept pushing the letter back to me, saying "你忍心吗？"
i wanted to laugh out loud into her face.
but i juz smiled n push back the letter to her.
go to hell.
u give me 1 million dollars i oso wun stay.
pui.

after i tendered my resignation, he went mad.
he asked for all the staff (excluding me), confirmed them immediately, increased their pay by 200 bucks.
well, at least, that's what he promised.
xiao.
HR sure go mad man.
any-o-how increase ppl's pay. ok lor, c hw u justify.
he scared ppl tender ah.

well, too late.
he def nv c it coming.
dats y he's so gan jiong.
my colleagues were thanking me for the extra windfall.
hahahaha
we shall c who hav the last laugh.

anyway, ppl, I AM LEAVING!!!!!!
yesh!!!!
lets celebrate.

Thank you

i wan to thank all the ppl whom hav shown their concern for the past few weeks.
thank u WL, fat cartoon for sending me emails of encouragement.
n all those good souls out there.
thank you v much.

KTV w my colleagues

we went ktv on the 31st Aug.
juz to vent our anger n everything.
i tell u, i had so much fun.
of cos, the tears as well.
nevertheless, they are the best.
n they will always b my best colleagues.


yes yes, everyone is so excited. super high.


me n S


this auntie dun sing in ktv one. but well, we fed her some alcohol n walla.
nah, she nv drink. natural high.hahahaha


me n my tu di.



pose pose. yes, u can c. they r dying for attention.


dun scold me for my ugly pose. i was forced to take this. hav to strech from a corner to take it. old bones cant take it one hor.


two vain pot acting cute. but i think the male colleague, I, looked more "cute". funny face.


yeah yeah. mini group photo when someone was singing english song. opps, so rude.hahahaha


my niang practicing hw to seduce my boss to become her mistress. we noe she will fail terribly.
hahahaha. she will kill me if she c this.


i laughed like hell when i saw this photo.
SP's head stuck out from nowhere. super creepy, but funny. purposely wanted to spoil the photo.



our group photo.
love these fun ppl.

I am stuck

yes. i am stuck in the office rite now.
it is already 7.45pm.
i'm nt complaining.
if i hav work to do that is.
but.
sigh.
i'm staying bcos of somebody's incompetency, pls a lousy server.
all internet services down. so, no email as well.
n the best thing?
i'm WAITING for an email.
wat the hell.
n they ( fatty n his gf) still can laugh.
nw, i'm like an extra in the office. w them.
freak.

well, at least, internet came back. but nt the email.
damn it.
n i'm still waiting.
y?
cos centre open tmr, last min wan me to rush this n that.
end up?
all cock up.
always.
n they keep changing their mind, even though it was "urgent".
if they didnt change their minds (again), the designs will b ready by yesterday.
but well, too bad.
n they locked themselves in the rm nw, duno do what.
FREAK.

i'm so tired nw.
sigh. waste my time man.
i'm supposed to meet 2 babes ltr. think no more.
muz cancel appt.
shit.

anyway, some updates.
my boss terminated S. w immediate effect, wout reasons.
we were damn sad.
but u noe what.
i'm nt going to b affected by him anymore.
to hell w him
enuff already.

I'll b back.

I never know......

i nv knew i can b so affected.
by them.
perhaps it was the "ge ming qing gan".
i'm really nt sure.
perhaps its their "real-ness".
maybe its bcos of him.
i'm really nt sure.
i've witness a mass weeping session last nite.
all of my colleagues (except 1 guy) were crying during the ending part of our ktv session.
serious.
i mean, i'm seriously affected by it.
our bastard boss finally gt rid of his "rotten apple" by kicking him out of HQ.
for me, this "rotten apple" is the type of employee that a boss would loved to have.
hardworking, serious, passionate abt work, patient......
he's really a nice guy.
we all went to hug him when he left at 2.30am.
n he told me,
"thanks for the support u've given me. u've been a great great pal to me."

n he turned around, thanked everyone.
"u guys r the best thing that had happened to me in this company. it kept me going everytime when i was down. thank all of u. thank u...."
n his eyes were filled w tears.
that was when everything went out of hand.
my niang started to hug him again, cry like mad (they were colleagues for a pretty long time), n started to say " i'm v angry. we r all suffering bcos of one person. y is this happening?"
this started the crying marathon (spelling? i'm nt in the mood to find out the correct spelling).
the gals started to cry one by one.
after our male colleague, s, left, the nxt song on the list was "tian shi" by mayday (believe it or nt, it was nt pre-arranged).
everyone was in a pretty sad mood.
so, i sang the song.
wrong choice.
as the song went, n they heard the lyrics of the song, EVERYONE started to cry like nobody's biz.
i was shocked.
i stared at them n paused the song.
i was lost.
suddenly, i felt my heart ache abit.
no, it hurts.
then i noe, i'm one of them too.
i felt pretty upset by what happened to s, n our future in the company.
its nt my future oni.
i'm worried abt them too.
we all hav this special bond between us, n i oni realised last nite.
they started to blabber out so much things when they cry.
then i realised.
from the day we noe our boss's true colours, the thing that kept us going in the company, was each other.
we r bonded. in a very special way.
n i oni noe them for less than 3 mths.
so it was v unusual for me to feel so close to them.
but it happened.

i noe i will nv ever find this kind of colleagues again in the future.
they r great.
no matter what happen in the future, i guess the 3 mth stint in this company will always b in my mind.
i love these ppl. they r angels.

meanwhile, i'm still pretty upset by what i've saw n heard yesterday.
i need time to absorb n think thru.

god bless the good ppl around me.
jia you.

这一生我只牵你的手

<<这一生我只牵你的手>>

这一生漂泊尝尽苦痛
失去太多
始终辛苦生活
还好有你不嫌弃我
情愿淡泊
甘心在我身旁守候
从无怨尤

在这被人遗忘的角落
远离尘忧
你我安静相守
虽然上天注定要你
一世沉默
我们用暗语交流
深情相通

这一生我只牵你的手
尽管喜乐与哀愁永远如此沉默
这一生我只牵你的手
因为今生有你早已足够
这一生我只牵你的手
只求坚心相守更胜世人欢情若梦
这一生我只牵你的手
你是否也和我相同

My colleagues

for so long i've toked abt them, here r the long back dated pix of the wonderful ppl around me.



this photo is taken after our company dinner. we went ktv. these angels r our fav "S.H.E".
v fun gals.


this is our regulatory team. my niang n mei mei.
ok, i looked weird in this pix.
it was taken after i had 6 glasses of wine.
nw u noe y.



we went for dinner at holland v on the 8th sept.
my crazy colleagues suggested to wear our national colors on the national day eve.
u dun expect me to wear red rite.
so, i belong to the white group.


the red ladies.
n they love the attention. ppl were staring at us when we were having dinner, cursing the fatso (aka my boss) in the process.
well, u cant blame us. we were damn grouchy, so v loud.
or its the red?
hmmmmm........


we went to a cafe for some drinks after the dinner.
cosy place. but i still dun like the idea to sit on the floor.


i pursuaded them to take a pix with ugly faces.
the one whom did nt do it, or hav the least ugly face will buy all of us drinks.
now u noe y we all looked so damn ugly.
hahahahaha.
so fun.


a normal pix.
i think we look like kids having lesson in a kindergarden.



our group pix.
the stupid waiter-unfriendly helper at the stall took it unwillingly for us.
but well, we love it.

a group of nice ppl to work with.
i doubt i can find such fun ppl after i leave.
but well, i will leave no matter what.
we will leave this shit hole.

你是我的眼

this song is written by a blind guy from taiwan,
v touched when i heard the song.

<<你是我的眼>>

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中
牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后
给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前

Karma or what?????

i tell u, u better b nice to ppl.
karma is in the hse.
literally.
after my exciting encounter on tues, i was utterly shocked when i saw my manager (aka boss's gf) yesterday.
her face was with FULL BLOWN rashes!!!!!
n apart from that, every part if her body was fine. (which was opposite of what i had)
my boss was heard saying " oh, my poor thing...." to her.
omg.
karma.
somemore come so fast.
i was so so so shocked.
yes, heaven has eyes.
but, karma wrong ppl leh.
anyway, hope she recover soon.
it is nt fun to hav rashes.
this i noe.
i'm nt so chek ark as to cursing ppl to b like me.
pls let her recover fast.

anyway, my boss was in his black face mood yesterday, making interviewees wait for 2 hrs b4 guiding thru them for another 2hrs interview.
freak.
i'm so getting out of this place soon.

my male colleague cried (yes, cried) during lunch yesterday.
muz b some sort of eruption of emotions which had been bottled up for so damn long.
boss "kicked" him out after he made the boss lose face in front of us.
bastard.
nt mentioning that he's of great help to him when setting up the company.
I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS SHIT HOLE!!!!!
its simply driving me insane.

如果你也听说

a new song by ah mei.
i like the lyrics.
n jay wrote the melody.

<<如果你也听说>>

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

My "exciting" day

super exciting yesterday.
i started to develop some serious rash on sunday, w it spreading to my limbs, face, body.
trust me, its serious.
even my fingers n toes had it.
super itchy oso.
so, i went to the doc on mon evening, after scratching like hell in office for the whole day (until my colleagues hv to ask me to stop scrtaching).
the doc gave me a jab, some anti -histamine.
went hm, the jab is nt working. it continue to spread n swell big time.
so, i sms my manager, told her i'll b on MC on tues (the doc gave me a MC, mind u).
she replied"ok, rest well."
it was 11 plus at nite.
so, i went to bed after the anti-histamine took effect.
fast forward to nxt morning, which is yesterday.
i realised that the swell n redness had subsided, w itch here n there. no doubt it's better already.
i on my hp at 9.30 am.
then i saw this sms. sent to me last nite at 12.35am. from my manager.
"Dr (which is my boss) ask u to come to office tmr. he say he might b able to help u."
tadah........
too late.
i smsed her back (in case she accused me of nt replying her), telling her that the redness had subsided, just itch here n there, shd b ok by tmr.
after 10 mins, my boss called me.
guess what the bloody arsehole say.
no?
he said "what hav u done? what hav u eaten? when did the rash develop? where is the rash? hw is the rash? did u c doc? what did he gave u?"
ok, one series on Q&A.
then, the ultimate.
he told me "UR FACE DUN HAVE RASH RITE? FACE DUN HAV CAN COME WHAT. FACE DUN HAVE NEVER MIND ONE MAH, STILL CAN COME TO WORK. I HAVE A MEETING W THE REG OFFICERS LTR N I DUN WAN TO REPEAT MYSELF."
i kept quiet.
"face dun hav can come. u come down NOW." he continued.
win already lor.
i LL went to work, despite of the fact that i've "painted" myself w calamine lotion (u noe, white patches here n there).
i took a cab, reached there.
sekali.
he's having a meeting w big boss.
guess what time he meet us?
4pm.
n whatever he said was bull crap (as usual).
it was nt as if he cant postpone the meeting.
i felt that he dun trust my MC. he tot i was faking it.
u can c it when he came n "check" on my rash.
"wayne, i purposely drove to the pharmacy n bought this for u" he came to my cubicle, handing me a pkt of clarinse (spelling?).
n he smirk when he "inspect" my rash.
pui.
i told him off on his face.
"i suffer like mad n u still can laugh?"
he kept quiet n walked away.
my colleagues were all furious.
which i'm nt, by the way. i was juz v tired for the whole day (anti-histamine effect).
what will u do if u hav this kind of boss?
quit?
shall i?

不能说的秘密

上个星期看了这部戏，感触很深。
简单的爱情故事，简单的校园背景，单纯的人，单纯的爱恋。
很棒。
很喜欢导演拍摄的手法，简单却不失诚恳。
原来，最简单，最单纯的故事，才是最动人的。
我仿佛又回到了校园，看到了许久不见的朋友。
嬉戏，玩闹，闯祸，暗恋。
感觉又回来了。

“能遇见你已经是很不可思议了。” 小雨对湘伦说。
爱情并不是永远占有，而是拥有的时候好好珍惜。
听着〈情人的眼泪〉，我被感动了。

小雨遇到了和自己相同的人，也不禁心动了。
简单并不代表感觉不强烈。
无悔的付出，结果可能不是你所想像的完美，但在年少轻狂拥有的坚定和勇气往往能带领我们到一个不同的国度。
你，准备好了吗？
我们一起去流浪，好吗？
因为除了你，我什么都不要。



“你好象很喜欢用一只手弹琴哦。”
“这样我的另外一只手才能牵着你啊。”

憨人

a hokkien song by mayday.
this is what descibes my feelings now

<<憨人>>
我的心内感觉
人生的沉重
不敢来振动
我不是好子
嘛不是歹人
我只是爱眠梦
我不愿随浪随风
飘浪西东
亲像船无港
我不愿做人
奸巧钻缝
甘愿来作憨人
我不是头脑空空
我不是一只米虫
人啊人
一世人
要安怎欢喜
过春夏秋冬
我有我的路
有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路
只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内
总有一天
看到满天全金条
要煞无半项
环境来戏弄
背景无够强
天才无够弄
逐项是拢输人
只好看破这虚华
不怕路歹行
不怕大雨淋
心上一字敢
面对我的梦
甘愿来作憨人
我不是头脑空空
我不是一只米虫
人啊人
一世人
要安怎欢喜
过春夏秋冬
我有我的路
有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路
只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内
我有我的路
有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路
只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内

Is our life too stress?

i almost got killed last week.
ok, nt so kua zhang. but smth happened last week.
no worries.i'm fine. thank you v much
but it certainly (to a certain extend) made me think abt my life.
to b exact, life in singapore.
r we really that stress?
my colleagues are telling me that 24hrs a day is def nt sufficient for her.
i think so too.
too much to b done, too little time.
i worked until 9 plus yesterday, spent half an hr for lunch AND dinner, then went bk to work again until 3 plus in the morning.
woke up at 6 plus, came to work again.
seriously speaking, i'm fine w this kind of life.
but, is it worth?
i'm having a headache nw, n i noe, i'm going to fall sick soon.
is it worth?

i like to work hard, slog like a cow.
but hey, for who?
i wan to do it for myself.
but nw, it seemed like i'm doing it for the sake of doing it.
oh, wrong.
i do it bcos i wan to lift my head high when i leave this shit hole.
few of them r planning to leave already
u can sense the atmosphere
it is nt as rosy as it was before
n all of us knew it.
n we felt helpless.
demoralised to the tip already.
its strange, cos i hav a super high treshold for humilation, lots of work, crappy bosses.
but this one is really different from others i've met
i've met my match.
he wins, cos he's the biggest here.
n there is no way we can escape from his scrutiny n bombing.
they called him the atomic bomb.

me?
i called him moron.
egoistic airhead w lots of chemicals n toxins in his brain.
i've met my match.

hey, digress too much.
my pt is, i'm stressed up.
i need to release myself mentally.
is life in other countries better?
it certainly is, according to the ppl i've met these while.
i'm beginning to think like them too.
what abt u?

Not doing well

no. i'm nt doing well now.
in fact, i'm pretty affected by what happened last week.
saw smth i shdnt.
n finally saw the true colors of my boss.
the whole office is so affected n demoralised nw.
what i can say us, it might b gone b4 u noe it.
maybe even b4 nxt yr.
i'm really nt sure.
shd i jump out of the ship nw?
i noe i shd.
n i'm sure i will.
but, i dun wan to leave my colleagues here either.
they r nice bunch of ppl.
duno la.
we shall c hw.
any recommendations or advice?
hahahaha.

牧笛

我抬头望了望天，似乎就快下雨了。是你在天上哭泣吗？
我背着那大锄头，拉着老牛，慢慢地走着。走啊走，走到了当初与你相遇的河边。
我吨了吨，突然看见了你。
那，真的是你吗？
不。
那是海市蜃楼，那是我的幻想。
那，是泡影。

下雨了。我仍然自顾地走着。
你也感觉到了我对你的思念了吗？
那打在身上的雨点，就是你想对我诉说的孤寂、对我的想念吗？
是你，在哭泣吗？

那沾湿我脸庞的，究竟是谁的泪水？

<<牧笛>>

在一座遥远的重远山,
有个是年少牛郎.
他每天勤奋的牧牛羊,
孤单是他最佳伙伴.
有一天老青牛带他到清湖畔,
仙女们三五沐浴梳妆.
莫名的勇气他拾起一件衣裳,
刹那间地摇天晃.
红銮星它为你下凡,
你,这一生我唯一的期待.
七夕雨也为我飘来,
我,注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
天长也哭不尽,
我对你思念惆怅.
我也只能夜夜地望着,
那每一次鹊桥两岸.
触犯了天条的真心该怎么办,
原来良缘要别人审判.
那一份我和你无尽的真情爱,
银河星也分不开.
红銮星它为你下凡,
你,这一生我唯一的期待.
七夕雨也为我飘来,
我,注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
天长也恸不尽,
我对你思念惆怅.
我也只能夜夜地望着,
那每一次鹊桥两岸.
每当我忍不住不停的思念你,
倾听我吹的牧笛.
遗忘吧以往,
王母娘娘的心也许会为我哭泣.
喔!滴沥沥!滴沥沥!滴沥!
你,这一生我唯一的期待.
滴沥沥!滴沥沥!滴沥!
我,注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
滴沥沥!滴沥沥!滴沥!
我!注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
天长也恸不尽,
我对你思念惆怅.
我也只能夜夜地望着,
那每一次鹊桥两岸,那每一次鹊桥两岸.

Composition

this is my new composition.
a v random one.
hw is it?

你爱喝的咖啡
溅湿地毯的一端
被打翻的杯子
碎片散落一地
咖啡在地毯上
渐渐留下痕迹
象那在我心中
难灭的痕迹

我爱看的背影
在人群多的一端
被挡住的影子
人们聚在一起
你在人群中
慢慢消失无迹
留下在我心中
孤守的秘密

忘记你是那么不容易
看见什么都想起你
我们之前所有的话题
是否已成了你我的回忆

忘记你是那么不容易
听见音乐就想起你
我们之间所有的约定
是否变成你心中的插曲

Retro

ok, i noe u all r going to scold me for this.
hahaha.
retro abit.
my fav song.
retro.

<<恰似你的温柔>>

某年某月的某一天,
就象一张破碎的脸.
难以开口道再见,
就让一切走远.
这不是一件容易的事,
我们却都没有哭泣.
让它淡淡地来,
让它好好地去.
到如今年复一年,
我不能停止怀念.
怀念你,怀念从前.
但愿那海风再起,
只为那浪花的手,
恰似你的温柔.
某年某月的某一天,
就象一张破碎的脸.
难以开口道再见,
就让一切走远.
这不是一件容易的事,
我们却都没有哭泣.
让它淡淡地来,
让它好好地去.
到如今年复一年,
我不能停止怀念.
怀念你,怀念从前.
但愿那海风再起,
只为那浪花的手,
恰似你的温柔.
到如今年复一年,
我不能停止怀念.
怀念你,怀念从前.
但愿那海风再起,
只为那浪花的手,
恰似你的温柔.

My weekend

i had a pretty good weekend.
planned a dinner at the Blue Potato at merchant court.
the food was so so, but the service was superb.
staff were prompt to request, giving u personal space.
u c, me n HZ were the oni ones there at 7pm.
so we chose to sit near the pool (far end of the restaurant).
still, service was good.
here r some pix.

HZ was quite uncomfortable w the "personal" service. for me, its pretty cool though.

our table is by the pool. it was w a "waterfall-that-will-change-colour-after-30-secs". this is the colour HZ liked.

my view from my seat. fireworks (for the NDP rehersal) were seen behind us. unfortunately, it was being blocked by the stupid building on the right. blah.

the waiter insist to take a pix for us.

i wanted to take come "artistic" photos. pretty cool rite.

one more.

we went clarke quay to hav some drinks n chill out abit.

after a bottle of white wine at the restaurant, we still had sex on the beach, vodka lime, beer.....
that made us abit tipsy at the end of the session.
however, we enjoyed our nonsense at the pub.
no, i'm nt going to tell u wat we did. u go n think urself.
hee hee.

went for steamboat on sunday.
n this family whom sat behind HZ really irritated me alot.
freak.
they r a family of 4, 2 sons, parents.
the sons were yakking n shouting all the way as they sat down.
it was a pretty enclosed area, so it was really noisy.
the mum n sons arrived 1st, followed by the dad.
i tell u, i really wanted to throw the soup onto his face as the dinner proceeded.
damn asshole.
as he was sitting down, he asked his wife,"wat soup did u order?"
the wife ans him,"oh, since the kids n i dun eat spicy stuff, i ordered chix soup"
the stupid man shouted at her "hw can u b so selfish??? i WANT to eat the spicy one!!!"
freak.
he made his wife walk out to change the soup.
ok, family biz, nt my prob.
then as they ate, the husband commanded the wife " eh, i wan to eat tau kee, order for me"
hello, the waitress was JUST BESIDE him.
yes, he could hav turned his bloody heavy pig head to tell the waitress.
no, he didnt.
he freaking ask his wife do it.
his wife then told him "but the kids dun eat leh"
he shouted " i eat lah!!!! what's the prob!!!"
ta ma de.
the waitress heard him n took his order though.
i juz shook my head.
then, the wife commented on the way one of their son ate. she said w a laugh " eh, look at ur son, y he eat like dat one?"
u noe wat the bastard say?
he say " u teach one what, isnt it?"
the wife kept quiet n look at the floor.
throughout the dinner, the wife tried to tok to him, but always get snubbed by the husband.
wtf.
after the dinner, the man commanded the wife to walk to the cashier n pay, while he sat there comfortably (spelling?), drinking his soup, dozing off.
wah lau.
why gt this kind of ppl one???????
i cant stand it man.
i told HZ, pls open ur big eyes n look at the person properly b4 u marry him.
sigh.
y do u marry this kind of man in the 1st place????
i dun understand.
at all.
hw i wish i can pour my soup over his head.
the spicy one, that is. since he liked it so much.
fu** off, u freak.

Our 11 years

today is the day.
the day we engaged each other as close frens.
11 yrs ago.
it has been a long time.
n we've went thru so so much.
all those heartbreaks n happy moments.
i'm glad that all of u were there when we needed each other.
i'm glad to share every emotion in my life w u guys.
i couldnt imagine life wout u ppl.
u guys r great.

thank you so much for everything.
for these 11 yrs.

happy anniversary.

love u guys.

自我催眠

<<自我催眠>>
人群里面那个我把幸福遗落
那曾经走过的路口我停了你却走
我想捂住我的耳朵听不见你说
爱就在此刻松手分手放手
我猜不透不猜透
和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分你才要走
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前
等着红灯那个我还会向前走
也许那幸福的执着在下一个路口
专属铃声我还留着却静静沉默
在我们之间爱了放了散了
我会不说不想说
怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默
只是掩饰着心痛我的难过
聪明再多一些
我走在没有你的世界
却走不到永远
慢慢闭上双眼

背叛

i'm pretty affected by what my colleague told me this afternoon during lunch.
well, its a typical story of hers.
u noe, her boyfren for 4 yrs got hooked up w another gal, blah blah blah.
then after breaking up for 1 yr, he came bk for her again.
n my colleague, whom looked strong n independent to me, actually shw another side of her.
i was suprised.
she told me "两个人在一起这么多年,怎么可能说忘记就忘记?"
true.
suddenly, she strike a chord in me.
n i sort of felt emotional again.
the thing is, this is a typical story.
u might hear it from ur fren, ur fren's fren.....
i'm sure u noe someone w this kind of experiences.
hw do u deal w it?
what will u do to someone u love so dearly for so long, but he/she betray ur trust?
hw will u react?
will u b a smart girl, expose him, although u noe the truth hurts?
or will u rather play dumb, n b happy?
which type of woman r u?


on my way hm after my piano class, i listened to this song for almost 10 times.
n i felt so sad.
dun worry, i'm fine.
sometimes u juz need some time alone n balance up the emotions which remain hidden during the day.
some feelings oni surfaced when u r alone.
for me, it will b the emotional, depressed me.
i need time alone to b like dat.
n i like the feeling.
yes, i'm pretty depressed rite nw.
but well, it will all b gone when i wake up tmr.
life is juz so pathetic that u hav to hide the true u to behave the way ppl tot was right.
pathetic.

yes, this is the song i listened to.
for 10 times.
a song written by Hebe.
i love this song.
the lyrics at the part "把爱坠落,让满地鲜红" is really an impact to me.
hurts so badly.


<<说你爱我>>

下着雨
让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音

看着你
看着斑驳的甜蜜
爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口
隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口
也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我
变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落
让满地鲜红
说你爱我
变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺

My God

he's good.
he's sexy.
he's funny.
he's naughty.
he's sincere.
he's powerful.
he's flawless.
he's charming.
he's bashful.
he's talented.
he's the BEST.
He
is
.
.
.
.
.
.
Jacky Cheung

i went to his concert on friday.
he 's the GOD of cantopop.
at age 46, he still can dance like a teenager.
at age 46, he still hav the stamina to sing for 3.5hrs.
to me, no one can replace his status or position in the music industry.
he is the best.
no matter what u say.
i'm glad i went.
very glad.

he is the oni one......
when he sang this song, i was so touched.
i used to think it was a crap song.
but.
i suddenly felt tear roll down my cheeks.
as the title suggested, my heart felt as if being pierced thru.

n it bled.
suddenly, lots of memories came flooding back to me.
it was overwhelming.


<<心如刀割>>

我的天是灰色
我的心是蓝色
触摸着你的心
竟是透明的

你的悠然自得
我却束手无策
我的心痛竟是你的快乐

其实我不想对你恋恋不舍
但什么让我辗转反侧
不觉我说着说着天就亮了
我的唇角尝到一种苦涩

我是真的为你哭了
你是真的随他走了
就在这一刻
全世界伤心角色又多了我一个
我是真的为你爱了
你是真的跟他走了
能给的我全都给了我都舍得
除了让你知道我心如刀割


then i realised, the lyrics was so good.

Dinner w my family

went for dinner w my family on tues (cos mum is "off" that day)
brought them to my dad's fav chinese restaurant at suntec. it was sort of a belated father's day celebration. so, yah.
here r some of the pix we took in the restaurant.



dad looking at the menu. hmm.....wat to eat neh????


dad waiting for the food.


bro n sis waiting to feast on the food. look at the contrast in expression between them. one v excited one v restless


this is the "buddha jump over the wall". everyone will hav 1. look at the sharkfin n abalone. super yummy!!!!


yes, i noe, i've ordered ALOT of food. buffet mah, muz EAT!!!!


sis enjoying her soup. i told u, it is yummy.


mum "promoting" her peking duck. she will make a good spokesperson.


my sis is pretty satisfied after the meal.



mum & dad.


our 1st family portriat



one more!!!!


there's a story abt this pix.

v funny.
we were taking a bus hm from tpy. mum n dad sat infront of us la.
mum was pretty tired, so she's resting her head on my dad's shoulder.
i quickly took my cam to take pix.
but mum was quick enuff to "withdraw" her head.
so the pix is like half half.
the funniest thing is, when i took the pix, there was a flash.
my dad turned n asked my mum
"di diang hip xiong?????" (teochew - who's taking photo???)

my sis n i were giggling behind them.
abviously, my dad doesnt noe abt us taking this pix of them la.
so funny.
i love my family.