昨天才知道，这首歌，是唱给一个死去的人听的歌。
好难过。
《我是不是你最疼爱的人 - 潘越云》
从来就没冷过
因为有你在我身后
你总是轻声地说 黑夜有我
你总是默默承受
这样的我不敢怨尤
现在为了什么 不再看我
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什么不说话
握住是你冰冷的手
动也不动让我好难过
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什么不说话
当我需要你的时候
你却沉默不说
从来就没冷过
因为有你挡住寒冻
你总是在我身后
带着笑容你总细心温柔
呵护守候这样的我
现在为了什么 不再看我
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什么不说话
握住是你冰冷的手
动也不动让我好难过
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什么不说话
当我需要你的时候
你却沉默不说
你最心疼我把眼哭红
记得你曾说过不让我委屈泪流
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什么不说话
当我需要你的时候
你却沉默不说
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
No Good
life has been pretty bad for me rite now.
i am v busy w my moving hse thingy. i will move this weekend.
at the same time, i realised that my boss has been planning to get rid of me.
she went around spreading rumours about me, asking ppl to support her, telling ppl bad things abt me (which is nt true of cos).
am i such a failure?
i hv no idea.
at least, for the past 10 yrs of working, i hv always been quite outstanding (if not, good enuff).
wats wrong w me then?
or was it her?
anyway, if my HR believed her crap n terminate me, i hav nothing to say.
most prob this company sucked w HR like this too.
we shall c.
my boss juz finished her conversation w my VP abt me.
we c how.
i am so tired abt all these crap.
i dun wan to think abt it rite now.
wat will happen, will happen.
i guess, i wun c any justice either.
pretty upset abt the whole thing.
i am dying to leave this place.
any lobang?
i will forgo my bonus if any chance come.
i dun care liao.
i am dying here.
i am v busy w my moving hse thingy. i will move this weekend.
at the same time, i realised that my boss has been planning to get rid of me.
she went around spreading rumours about me, asking ppl to support her, telling ppl bad things abt me (which is nt true of cos).
am i such a failure?
i hv no idea.
at least, for the past 10 yrs of working, i hv always been quite outstanding (if not, good enuff).
wats wrong w me then?
or was it her?
anyway, if my HR believed her crap n terminate me, i hav nothing to say.
most prob this company sucked w HR like this too.
we shall c.
my boss juz finished her conversation w my VP abt me.
we c how.
i am so tired abt all these crap.
i dun wan to think abt it rite now.
wat will happen, will happen.
i guess, i wun c any justice either.
pretty upset abt the whole thing.
i am dying to leave this place.
any lobang?
i will forgo my bonus if any chance come.
i dun care liao.
i am dying here.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
生命的变数
最近心情很烦躁。
太多事情发生，搞得心神不宁。
生命充满了太多变数，让我不胜负荷。
我累了。
再多的情绪也只能在我的小小世界里抒发。
只有在这里，我才能用文字尽情飞舞。
我知道，这个月将会很忐忑。我有准备。
所以，我准备好了，要打一场硬战。
替我祈祷吧！
太多事情发生，搞得心神不宁。
生命充满了太多变数，让我不胜负荷。
我累了。
再多的情绪也只能在我的小小世界里抒发。
只有在这里，我才能用文字尽情飞舞。
我知道，这个月将会很忐忑。我有准备。
所以，我准备好了，要打一场硬战。
替我祈祷吧！
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
一路好走
我要离去
别再哭泣不要伤心
请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵着手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你。。。
my fren's bro in-law passed away on monday.
leaving behind his wife and a six yr old son.
he juz collapsed in the hse suddenly, n was gone juz like that.
brain stem rupture.
no signs, no ways to prevent it.
they hav been together for 15 yrs, married for 7 yrs. thru all ups n downs, they've grew stronger for each other, n the bond between them r strong.
he had given her 15 yrs of happiness.
n he will b in her heart forever.
the little boy had to hide his tears from his mum, cos he knew that his mum will b more upset than him. he wanted to b brave for her.
i began to realise that life cannot b predicted at all.
wats the use of planning for the future when u dun even noe wats in for u?
of cos, this oso makes life interesting.
life is always unfair.
this i always noe.
but to accept this......
well, it was pretty emotional for me, since i knew all of them.
To my dear fren: 你要加油，好好照顾姐姐和外甥。
To Keane: u r a strong sensible boy. take good care of ur mummy for ur daddy, grow up healthly and become someone whom ur daddy n mummy will b proud of. i am sure u will.
To Eric: u will always b in the hearts of those whom love u, esp M n Keane.一路好走。
To all: please tell ur loved ones that u love them, cos u duno when they will leave u. love u guys.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Random Updates
ok. i havent been updating on my "happenings".
here goes.
Cleaning up my room
yes, its time.
i am going to move out my current hse by this mth.
its time to clear my stuff.
as all of u noe, i will b moving into a smaller unit, so i need to throw away alot of things.
these r some of my collection.
my spiderman collection i got from HK's temple street. cute hor. it was the last set the hawker had. n he was closing his stall dat time, so i gt this set at a relatively cheap price (HK$100 i tink). well, they r in the dumpster now. i threw them away.
my beloved 小陆宝. cute hor. i will nv throw them away. will b bringing them w me to the new hse. haha.
retro hor? whom had this when they were kids?
few yrs ago (b4 the "anything" and "watever"), i bought these in east coast. buay song.
got this bottle straight from the GM of coke. we gt the best project for marketing, did a presentation in front of him. those r the "signature" of my team members (including my ex...hahaha) with a neoprint on it. ya, u got it. my team's name is "dipsy n the teletubbies". dun ask me y.
my medals i got during sports meet n swimming carnival. the other one was the ECA distinction award i got on speech day for NPCC.
who can forget the legendary 双天至尊? when yan fei n luo qi fang was fighting for their love, we were fighting for this dice. now, in the dumpster as well. the luminous paint faded off.
i can oni say i preferred muthu's fishhead. although the fish here is more meaty, i felt that muthu's fishhead was more spicy (hot, i like) and tasty. baby likes this though. she finds muthu's fish toooo spicy. hahaha.
oh, do rem to dip ur papadom into the curry gravy nxt time. yummy combination.
we went bakerzin for dessert after that cos baby was nt in a good mood then.
wanted to cheer her up abit.
we ordered the 5 tapas combination. this is the banana pizza. yummy.
it was oso a yearly thing to bring both of them to this restaurant at suntec for dinner.
my dad was boasting abt his charm. he cant stop toking to the waitresses who served our table. buay tahan. he tot he andy lau (老). my mum cant b bothered. hahaha.
this is the appetiser. one serving per pax. roasted meat w honey mustard sauce (yum!), veg dumpling (ok lor) n wasabi prawn (damn spicy)
this was the highlight of the day (n the reason y this cost SO MUCH). fyi, this is one serving per pax.
my sis was pretty happy abt it. look at my bro's "wtf" face.
if u realised, this pix is somewhat similar to last yr's pix.
haha.
however, so much things happened during this one yr.
and i am grateful that i am still here.
no matter wat happen (stupid freaking cheena chix), i noe, my family will still b here.
n my baby.
:)
here goes.
Cleaning up my room
yes, its time.
i am going to move out my current hse by this mth.
its time to clear my stuff.
as all of u noe, i will b moving into a smaller unit, so i need to throw away alot of things.
these r some of my collection.
my spiderman collection i got from HK's temple street. cute hor. it was the last set the hawker had. n he was closing his stall dat time, so i gt this set at a relatively cheap price (HK$100 i tink). well, they r in the dumpster now. i threw them away.
my fav ultraman collection. sigh. in dumpster too. sad.
my beloved 小陆宝. cute hor. i will nv throw them away. will b bringing them w me to the new hse. haha.
retro hor? whom had this when they were kids?
few yrs ago (b4 the "anything" and "watever"), i bought these in east coast. buay song.
one of my admirer (i forgot who) gave this to me duno when. hahaha.
got this bottle straight from the GM of coke. we gt the best project for marketing, did a presentation in front of him. those r the "signature" of my team members (including my ex...hahaha) with a neoprint on it. ya, u got it. my team's name is "dipsy n the teletubbies". dun ask me y.
my medals i got during sports meet n swimming carnival. the other one was the ECA distinction award i got on speech day for NPCC.
who can forget the legendary 双天至尊? when yan fei n luo qi fang was fighting for their love, we were fighting for this dice. now, in the dumpster as well. the luminous paint faded off.as i was clearing up the stuff, i stepped rite INTO a collar pin. the whole pin went right INTO my sole. i pulled it out (v pain), n blood gushes out like mad. the blood formed a small puddle on the floor. nobody was at hm. i need to crawl to the toilet n wash my wound.
sigh.
Muthu Curry vs Banana Leaf
baby n i went for curry fishhead a few weeks ago. we had muthu's b4, so we've decided to try the banana leaf one this time.
we ordered one fishhead, masala chix n rice w veg.
i can oni say i preferred muthu's fishhead. although the fish here is more meaty, i felt that muthu's fishhead was more spicy (hot, i like) and tasty. baby likes this though. she finds muthu's fish toooo spicy. hahaha.
oh, do rem to dip ur papadom into the curry gravy nxt time. yummy combination.
we went bakerzin for dessert after that cos baby was nt in a good mood then.
wanted to cheer her up abit.
we ordered the 5 tapas combination. this is the banana pizza. yummy.
yes yes. look at her. she's so excited over this. mango sorbet, raseberry pina cotta, one yoghurt (i forgot wat. supposed to b v special flavor. haha. obviously, its nt dat special, until i can forget), n the choc ice cream w liquor blueberries.
nt bad. dessert is sure their specialty. but well, the oni thing i rem was baby gawking at another bang (ok, v handsome. he win). hmph.
Dad & Mum's Birthday 
dad n mum. yes, i purposely put a half naked pix of my dad w his sexy chest hair. too bad he dun hav 6 pac. hee.
the story behind this pix i damn funny. i was taking this pix while everyone was standing there wout a sound. then i say "eh, y no one sing song one?". this forces my siblings to sing "the world's most reluctant bday song of the century" look at their reluctant face. my dad can even thank them after the song. funny. he muz b in good mood.
my sis looked like the mama san from the olden times, forcing this helpless auntie to sell her son into prostitution. look at the bitchy look on my sis's face. classic.
it was oso a yearly thing to bring both of them to this restaurant at suntec for dinner.
my dad was boasting abt his charm. he cant stop toking to the waitresses who served our table. buay tahan. he tot he andy lau (老). my mum cant b bothered. hahaha.
this is the appetiser. one serving per pax. roasted meat w honey mustard sauce (yum!), veg dumpling (ok lor) n wasabi prawn (damn spicy)
this was the highlight of the day (n the reason y this cost SO MUCH). fyi, this is one serving per pax.
my sis was pretty happy abt it. look at my bro's "wtf" face.
the bowl was full of shark's fin (to hell w WWF), n the broth was damn yummy.
this is the scallops w 红糟 n asparagus. nice.
steamed cod fish w bean sauce. v v v yummy. but i still think that the fish is nt fresh enuff. hmmm.
spinach w muchrooms.
mum was v happy w all the dishes.
yi mian w lobster. by this time, we were all v v full. hav to struggle to eat the rest of the food.
sis: wah lau eh, si beh bah
bro: hmm, can i ask that pretty lady over there to join in for dinner?
sis: wah lau eh, i throw the noodle on ur face then u noe
bro: eh cannot, ltr the lady cannot c me
sis: i nv throw she oso wun c u
dessert. duno wat jelly wat. nt nice.
if u realised, this pix is somewhat similar to last yr's pix.
haha.
however, so much things happened during this one yr.
and i am grateful that i am still here.
no matter wat happen (stupid freaking cheena chix), i noe, my family will still b here.
n my baby.
:)
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