New song

已经结束的爱情
为何还游荡在心里
努力试着把你忘记
却往往把你想起

你曾波动我心的旋律
让我爱得不能自己
你曾分享我心中秘密
让我放肆地依赖着你

你已远去
剩下我孤独的身躯
心却在原地
默默守候枯萎的爱情

你已远去
留下我寂寞的身影
心却在想你
默默承受孤单的悲泣

心情糟透了

最近思绪有点混乱。也不知道为什么。
一些想忘记的回忆突然间涌了上来。
心情满糟的。
再加上即将离开一个很喜欢的工作环境。
更混乱了。

dun tell me all those crap like "relax la", "life is like that la"......
i noe more than u do.
shut up.

feeling lost at the moment. which really sound so irony since i'm dying to get out of her few weeks ago.
humans r complex animals.
w complex emotions.

是非题

this song is good.
new song by fan wei qi

<<是非题>>

每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心却只向着你前进
也许爱越单纯越着迷

你是窗外另外一片风景
在你眼里我是什么关系
你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里
何时能诚实面对自己

我们从不开口那个言语
那一句我爱你
永远像少了勇气
别人都说
我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心

我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题
总让人伤透脑筋
我会期待
爱盛开那一个黎明
一定会有美丽的爱情

My office

we took some photos for company banners.
these r unofficial ones. i managed to "smuggle" them from the photographer.


this photo needs to b photoshopped to take out somebody whom shd nt b in it.


i like this photo. everyone is so happy


pardon my big mouth. we were shouting "huat ah".
ok, i noe, the bigger the mouth, the more huat. so u noe y i open so big liao.

I'm going. YES!

yes ppl.
for those whom r worried abt me, good news.
i've got a new job which pays me better n w better benefits.
starting 1st Oct.
COOL!

i juz handed my letter to that YDL's gf.
sucked.
she kept pushing the letter back to me, saying "你忍心吗？"
i wanted to laugh out loud into her face.
but i juz smiled n push back the letter to her.
go to hell.
u give me 1 million dollars i oso wun stay.
pui.

after i tendered my resignation, he went mad.
he asked for all the staff (excluding me), confirmed them immediately, increased their pay by 200 bucks.
well, at least, that's what he promised.
xiao.
HR sure go mad man.
any-o-how increase ppl's pay. ok lor, c hw u justify.
he scared ppl tender ah.

well, too late.
he def nv c it coming.
dats y he's so gan jiong.
my colleagues were thanking me for the extra windfall.
hahahaha
we shall c who hav the last laugh.

anyway, ppl, I AM LEAVING!!!!!!
yesh!!!!
lets celebrate.

Thank you

i wan to thank all the ppl whom hav shown their concern for the past few weeks.
thank u WL, fat cartoon for sending me emails of encouragement.
n all those good souls out there.
thank you v much.

KTV w my colleagues

we went ktv on the 31st Aug.
juz to vent our anger n everything.
i tell u, i had so much fun.
of cos, the tears as well.
nevertheless, they are the best.
n they will always b my best colleagues.


yes yes, everyone is so excited. super high.


me n S


this auntie dun sing in ktv one. but well, we fed her some alcohol n walla.
nah, she nv drink. natural high.hahahaha


me n my tu di.



pose pose. yes, u can c. they r dying for attention.


dun scold me for my ugly pose. i was forced to take this. hav to strech from a corner to take it. old bones cant take it one hor.


two vain pot acting cute. but i think the male colleague, I, looked more "cute". funny face.


yeah yeah. mini group photo when someone was singing english song. opps, so rude.hahahaha


my niang practicing hw to seduce my boss to become her mistress. we noe she will fail terribly.
hahahaha. she will kill me if she c this.


i laughed like hell when i saw this photo.
SP's head stuck out from nowhere. super creepy, but funny. purposely wanted to spoil the photo.



our group photo.
love these fun ppl.

I am stuck

yes. i am stuck in the office rite now.
it is already 7.45pm.
i'm nt complaining.
if i hav work to do that is.
but.
sigh.
i'm staying bcos of somebody's incompetency, pls a lousy server.
all internet services down. so, no email as well.
n the best thing?
i'm WAITING for an email.
wat the hell.
n they ( fatty n his gf) still can laugh.
nw, i'm like an extra in the office. w them.
freak.

well, at least, internet came back. but nt the email.
damn it.
n i'm still waiting.
y?
cos centre open tmr, last min wan me to rush this n that.
end up?
all cock up.
always.
n they keep changing their mind, even though it was "urgent".
if they didnt change their minds (again), the designs will b ready by yesterday.
but well, too bad.
n they locked themselves in the rm nw, duno do what.
FREAK.

i'm so tired nw.
sigh. waste my time man.
i'm supposed to meet 2 babes ltr. think no more.
muz cancel appt.
shit.

anyway, some updates.
my boss terminated S. w immediate effect, wout reasons.
we were damn sad.
but u noe what.
i'm nt going to b affected by him anymore.
to hell w him
enuff already.

I'll b back.

I never know......

i nv knew i can b so affected.
by them.
perhaps it was the "ge ming qing gan".
i'm really nt sure.
perhaps its their "real-ness".
maybe its bcos of him.
i'm really nt sure.
i've witness a mass weeping session last nite.
all of my colleagues (except 1 guy) were crying during the ending part of our ktv session.
serious.
i mean, i'm seriously affected by it.
our bastard boss finally gt rid of his "rotten apple" by kicking him out of HQ.
for me, this "rotten apple" is the type of employee that a boss would loved to have.
hardworking, serious, passionate abt work, patient......
he's really a nice guy.
we all went to hug him when he left at 2.30am.
n he told me,
"thanks for the support u've given me. u've been a great great pal to me."

n he turned around, thanked everyone.
"u guys r the best thing that had happened to me in this company. it kept me going everytime when i was down. thank all of u. thank u...."
n his eyes were filled w tears.
that was when everything went out of hand.
my niang started to hug him again, cry like mad (they were colleagues for a pretty long time), n started to say " i'm v angry. we r all suffering bcos of one person. y is this happening?"
this started the crying marathon (spelling? i'm nt in the mood to find out the correct spelling).
the gals started to cry one by one.
after our male colleague, s, left, the nxt song on the list was "tian shi" by mayday (believe it or nt, it was nt pre-arranged).
everyone was in a pretty sad mood.
so, i sang the song.
wrong choice.
as the song went, n they heard the lyrics of the song, EVERYONE started to cry like nobody's biz.
i was shocked.
i stared at them n paused the song.
i was lost.
suddenly, i felt my heart ache abit.
no, it hurts.
then i noe, i'm one of them too.
i felt pretty upset by what happened to s, n our future in the company.
its nt my future oni.
i'm worried abt them too.
we all hav this special bond between us, n i oni realised last nite.
they started to blabber out so much things when they cry.
then i realised.
from the day we noe our boss's true colours, the thing that kept us going in the company, was each other.
we r bonded. in a very special way.
n i oni noe them for less than 3 mths.
so it was v unusual for me to feel so close to them.
but it happened.

i noe i will nv ever find this kind of colleagues again in the future.
they r great.
no matter what happen in the future, i guess the 3 mth stint in this company will always b in my mind.
i love these ppl. they r angels.

meanwhile, i'm still pretty upset by what i've saw n heard yesterday.
i need time to absorb n think thru.

god bless the good ppl around me.
jia you.