这一生我只牵你的手

<<这一生我只牵你的手>>

这一生漂泊尝尽苦痛
失去太多
始终辛苦生活
还好有你不嫌弃我
情愿淡泊
甘心在我身旁守候
从无怨尤

在这被人遗忘的角落
远离尘忧
你我安静相守
虽然上天注定要你
一世沉默
我们用暗语交流
深情相通

这一生我只牵你的手
尽管喜乐与哀愁永远如此沉默
这一生我只牵你的手
因为今生有你早已足够
这一生我只牵你的手
只求坚心相守更胜世人欢情若梦
这一生我只牵你的手
你是否也和我相同

My colleagues

for so long i've toked abt them, here r the long back dated pix of the wonderful ppl around me.



this photo is taken after our company dinner. we went ktv. these angels r our fav "S.H.E".
v fun gals.


this is our regulatory team. my niang n mei mei.
ok, i looked weird in this pix.
it was taken after i had 6 glasses of wine.
nw u noe y.



we went for dinner at holland v on the 8th sept.
my crazy colleagues suggested to wear our national colors on the national day eve.
u dun expect me to wear red rite.
so, i belong to the white group.


the red ladies.
n they love the attention. ppl were staring at us when we were having dinner, cursing the fatso (aka my boss) in the process.
well, u cant blame us. we were damn grouchy, so v loud.
or its the red?
hmmmmm........


we went to a cafe for some drinks after the dinner.
cosy place. but i still dun like the idea to sit on the floor.


i pursuaded them to take a pix with ugly faces.
the one whom did nt do it, or hav the least ugly face will buy all of us drinks.
now u noe y we all looked so damn ugly.
hahahahaha.
so fun.


a normal pix.
i think we look like kids having lesson in a kindergarden.



our group pix.
the stupid waiter-unfriendly helper at the stall took it unwillingly for us.
but well, we love it.

a group of nice ppl to work with.
i doubt i can find such fun ppl after i leave.
but well, i will leave no matter what.
we will leave this shit hole.

你是我的眼

this song is written by a blind guy from taiwan,
v touched when i heard the song.

<<你是我的眼>>

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中
牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后
给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前

Karma or what?????

i tell u, u better b nice to ppl.
karma is in the hse.
literally.
after my exciting encounter on tues, i was utterly shocked when i saw my manager (aka boss's gf) yesterday.
her face was with FULL BLOWN rashes!!!!!
n apart from that, every part if her body was fine. (which was opposite of what i had)
my boss was heard saying " oh, my poor thing...." to her.
omg.
karma.
somemore come so fast.
i was so so so shocked.
yes, heaven has eyes.
but, karma wrong ppl leh.
anyway, hope she recover soon.
it is nt fun to hav rashes.
this i noe.
i'm nt so chek ark as to cursing ppl to b like me.
pls let her recover fast.

anyway, my boss was in his black face mood yesterday, making interviewees wait for 2 hrs b4 guiding thru them for another 2hrs interview.
freak.
i'm so getting out of this place soon.

my male colleague cried (yes, cried) during lunch yesterday.
muz b some sort of eruption of emotions which had been bottled up for so damn long.
boss "kicked" him out after he made the boss lose face in front of us.
bastard.
nt mentioning that he's of great help to him when setting up the company.
I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS SHIT HOLE!!!!!
its simply driving me insane.

如果你也听说

a new song by ah mei.
i like the lyrics.
n jay wrote the melody.

<<如果你也听说>>

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

My "exciting" day

super exciting yesterday.
i started to develop some serious rash on sunday, w it spreading to my limbs, face, body.
trust me, its serious.
even my fingers n toes had it.
super itchy oso.
so, i went to the doc on mon evening, after scratching like hell in office for the whole day (until my colleagues hv to ask me to stop scrtaching).
the doc gave me a jab, some anti -histamine.
went hm, the jab is nt working. it continue to spread n swell big time.
so, i sms my manager, told her i'll b on MC on tues (the doc gave me a MC, mind u).
she replied"ok, rest well."
it was 11 plus at nite.
so, i went to bed after the anti-histamine took effect.
fast forward to nxt morning, which is yesterday.
i realised that the swell n redness had subsided, w itch here n there. no doubt it's better already.
i on my hp at 9.30 am.
then i saw this sms. sent to me last nite at 12.35am. from my manager.
"Dr (which is my boss) ask u to come to office tmr. he say he might b able to help u."
tadah........
too late.
i smsed her back (in case she accused me of nt replying her), telling her that the redness had subsided, just itch here n there, shd b ok by tmr.
after 10 mins, my boss called me.
guess what the bloody arsehole say.
no?
he said "what hav u done? what hav u eaten? when did the rash develop? where is the rash? hw is the rash? did u c doc? what did he gave u?"
ok, one series on Q&A.
then, the ultimate.
he told me "UR FACE DUN HAVE RASH RITE? FACE DUN HAV CAN COME WHAT. FACE DUN HAVE NEVER MIND ONE MAH, STILL CAN COME TO WORK. I HAVE A MEETING W THE REG OFFICERS LTR N I DUN WAN TO REPEAT MYSELF."
i kept quiet.
"face dun hav can come. u come down NOW." he continued.
win already lor.
i LL went to work, despite of the fact that i've "painted" myself w calamine lotion (u noe, white patches here n there).
i took a cab, reached there.
sekali.
he's having a meeting w big boss.
guess what time he meet us?
4pm.
n whatever he said was bull crap (as usual).
it was nt as if he cant postpone the meeting.
i felt that he dun trust my MC. he tot i was faking it.
u can c it when he came n "check" on my rash.
"wayne, i purposely drove to the pharmacy n bought this for u" he came to my cubicle, handing me a pkt of clarinse (spelling?).
n he smirk when he "inspect" my rash.
pui.
i told him off on his face.
"i suffer like mad n u still can laugh?"
he kept quiet n walked away.
my colleagues were all furious.
which i'm nt, by the way. i was juz v tired for the whole day (anti-histamine effect).
what will u do if u hav this kind of boss?
quit?
shall i?

不能说的秘密

上个星期看了这部戏，感触很深。
简单的爱情故事，简单的校园背景，单纯的人，单纯的爱恋。
很棒。
很喜欢导演拍摄的手法，简单却不失诚恳。
原来，最简单，最单纯的故事，才是最动人的。
我仿佛又回到了校园，看到了许久不见的朋友。
嬉戏，玩闹，闯祸，暗恋。
感觉又回来了。

“能遇见你已经是很不可思议了。” 小雨对湘伦说。
爱情并不是永远占有，而是拥有的时候好好珍惜。
听着〈情人的眼泪〉，我被感动了。

小雨遇到了和自己相同的人，也不禁心动了。
简单并不代表感觉不强烈。
无悔的付出，结果可能不是你所想像的完美，但在年少轻狂拥有的坚定和勇气往往能带领我们到一个不同的国度。
你，准备好了吗？
我们一起去流浪，好吗？
因为除了你，我什么都不要。



“你好象很喜欢用一只手弹琴哦。”
“这样我的另外一只手才能牵着你啊。”

憨人

a hokkien song by mayday.
this is what descibes my feelings now

<<憨人>>
我的心内感觉
人生的沉重
不敢来振动
我不是好子
嘛不是歹人
我只是爱眠梦
我不愿随浪随风
飘浪西东
亲像船无港
我不愿做人
奸巧钻缝
甘愿来作憨人
我不是头脑空空
我不是一只米虫
人啊人
一世人
要安怎欢喜
过春夏秋冬
我有我的路
有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路
只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内
总有一天
看到满天全金条
要煞无半项
环境来戏弄
背景无够强
天才无够弄
逐项是拢输人
只好看破这虚华
不怕路歹行
不怕大雨淋
心上一字敢
面对我的梦
甘愿来作憨人
我不是头脑空空
我不是一只米虫
人啊人
一世人
要安怎欢喜
过春夏秋冬
我有我的路
有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路
只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内
我有我的路
有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路
只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内

Is our life too stress?

i almost got killed last week.
ok, nt so kua zhang. but smth happened last week.
no worries.i'm fine. thank you v much
but it certainly (to a certain extend) made me think abt my life.
to b exact, life in singapore.
r we really that stress?
my colleagues are telling me that 24hrs a day is def nt sufficient for her.
i think so too.
too much to b done, too little time.
i worked until 9 plus yesterday, spent half an hr for lunch AND dinner, then went bk to work again until 3 plus in the morning.
woke up at 6 plus, came to work again.
seriously speaking, i'm fine w this kind of life.
but, is it worth?
i'm having a headache nw, n i noe, i'm going to fall sick soon.
is it worth?

i like to work hard, slog like a cow.
but hey, for who?
i wan to do it for myself.
but nw, it seemed like i'm doing it for the sake of doing it.
oh, wrong.
i do it bcos i wan to lift my head high when i leave this shit hole.
few of them r planning to leave already
u can sense the atmosphere
it is nt as rosy as it was before
n all of us knew it.
n we felt helpless.
demoralised to the tip already.
its strange, cos i hav a super high treshold for humilation, lots of work, crappy bosses.
but this one is really different from others i've met
i've met my match.
he wins, cos he's the biggest here.
n there is no way we can escape from his scrutiny n bombing.
they called him the atomic bomb.

me?
i called him moron.
egoistic airhead w lots of chemicals n toxins in his brain.
i've met my match.

hey, digress too much.
my pt is, i'm stressed up.
i need to release myself mentally.
is life in other countries better?
it certainly is, according to the ppl i've met these while.
i'm beginning to think like them too.
what abt u?

Not doing well

no. i'm nt doing well now.
in fact, i'm pretty affected by what happened last week.
saw smth i shdnt.
n finally saw the true colors of my boss.
the whole office is so affected n demoralised nw.
what i can say us, it might b gone b4 u noe it.
maybe even b4 nxt yr.
i'm really nt sure.
shd i jump out of the ship nw?
i noe i shd.
n i'm sure i will.
but, i dun wan to leave my colleagues here either.
they r nice bunch of ppl.
duno la.
we shall c hw.
any recommendations or advice?
hahahaha.

牧笛

我抬头望了望天，似乎就快下雨了。是你在天上哭泣吗？
我背着那大锄头，拉着老牛，慢慢地走着。走啊走，走到了当初与你相遇的河边。
我吨了吨，突然看见了你。
那，真的是你吗？
不。
那是海市蜃楼，那是我的幻想。
那，是泡影。

下雨了。我仍然自顾地走着。
你也感觉到了我对你的思念了吗？
那打在身上的雨点，就是你想对我诉说的孤寂、对我的想念吗？
是你，在哭泣吗？

那沾湿我脸庞的，究竟是谁的泪水？

<<牧笛>>

在一座遥远的重远山,
有个是年少牛郎.
他每天勤奋的牧牛羊,
孤单是他最佳伙伴.
有一天老青牛带他到清湖畔,
仙女们三五沐浴梳妆.
莫名的勇气他拾起一件衣裳,
刹那间地摇天晃.
红銮星它为你下凡,
你,这一生我唯一的期待.
七夕雨也为我飘来,
我,注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
天长也哭不尽,
我对你思念惆怅.
我也只能夜夜地望着,
那每一次鹊桥两岸.
触犯了天条的真心该怎么办,
原来良缘要别人审判.
那一份我和你无尽的真情爱,
银河星也分不开.
红銮星它为你下凡,
你,这一生我唯一的期待.
七夕雨也为我飘来,
我,注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
天长也恸不尽,
我对你思念惆怅.
我也只能夜夜地望着,
那每一次鹊桥两岸.
每当我忍不住不停的思念你,
倾听我吹的牧笛.
遗忘吧以往,
王母娘娘的心也许会为我哭泣.
喔!滴沥沥!滴沥沥!滴沥!
你,这一生我唯一的期待.
滴沥沥!滴沥沥!滴沥!
我,注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
滴沥沥!滴沥沥!滴沥!
我!注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠.
天长也恸不尽,
我对你思念惆怅.
我也只能夜夜地望着,
那每一次鹊桥两岸,那每一次鹊桥两岸.

Composition

this is my new composition.
a v random one.
hw is it?

你爱喝的咖啡
溅湿地毯的一端
被打翻的杯子
碎片散落一地
咖啡在地毯上
渐渐留下痕迹
象那在我心中
难灭的痕迹

我爱看的背影
在人群多的一端
被挡住的影子
人们聚在一起
你在人群中
慢慢消失无迹
留下在我心中
孤守的秘密

忘记你是那么不容易
看见什么都想起你
我们之前所有的话题
是否已成了你我的回忆

忘记你是那么不容易
听见音乐就想起你
我们之间所有的约定
是否变成你心中的插曲